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Ultimatefighter

Ultimatefighter

Earth is hell
Jun 6, 2026
136
Does anyone here has hated others already all there lives, hate existence and don't want to be part of this shit.

Because of all betrayal, bullying and just in general humans who lie all the times can't stand most of them.

I get this extreme rage inside me all the time what could lead to bad things it's so hard to keep it inside me.

Anyone else can relate?
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,130
I can relate so much. I have this very deep hatred and anger inside me that burns like fire some days. I try to keep it contained but some days I just can't and I end up punching doors. The door to my bedroom has holes and cracks all over it from all the times I've punched it. I don't get physically violent with other people, even though I quite often want to.

Probably the people I hate the most would be the loan department at the bank I used to go to that sued me over it. They kicked me when I was down and struggling and I will never forgive them for it, or for closing my checking account so I had to find a different bank.
 
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FF777

FF777

I am male..
Jul 21, 2019
215
i hate this planet.. it's planet of the apes.. the competency crisis is real, where no one can do any thing.. all companies and governments are run by complete morons that have no idea what they are doing and it drives me crazy..

and yeah individual humans like to play games...... they lie or pout or deceive you or just a lot of things i really don't have time for..
 
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korchoi

Member
May 15, 2026
24
If life is painful, anyone would have such thoughts. Those who aren't in pain criticize you; they accuse you of harboring antisocial thoughts. Yet, if they were suffering too, they would curse others just the same.
 
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Ultimatefighter

Ultimatefighter

Earth is hell
Jun 6, 2026
136
I would like to add to my thoughts, it is not something that i like about myself. I hate this feeling so strong intense hate it destroys me. I don't want to hate the world but it just feels so intense. I worry i can not keep the beast inside forever and do something destroying someone else life and my own. I do not want this..
I can relate so much. I have this very deep hatred and anger inside me that burns like fire some days. I try to keep it contained but some days I just can't and I end up punching doors. The door to my bedroom has holes and cracks all over it from all the times I've punched it. I don't get physically violent with other people, even though I quite often want to.

Probably the people I hate the most would be the loan department at the bank I used to go to that sued me over it. They kicked me when I was down and struggling and I will never forgive them for it, or for closing my checking account so I had to find a different bank.
sorry to hear your struggling to 🙏🏻 do you think it has to do with being able to control emotions? Eventhough it is a rational body response
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Paragon
Oct 8, 2023
903
The envy I feel towards humanity is unbearable. I did not do anything to deserve this misery and yet here I am. I do not understand how the people who aren't in such pain can tell me that I am the one who built this life. Why would I intentionally cause myself such pain?

I am trapped. It is like the story I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream. I am trapped in this existence while the rest of humanity (who would be AM) continue to enforce suffering. Unlike AM I do not think they do it out of malevolence, but rather, ignorance. Or perhaps, the prevention of suicide is out of selfishness. I do not know. All I know that I wish for the misery to end, and yet I still cling to life for some unknowable reason.
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
387
When I lived near family we were much closer. I moved 10 1/2 years ago and now we barely keep in touch. None of them could possibly claim me dying was any big deal to them.
I feel rage inside me once in awhile and I prefer it to the otherwise constant can't give a sh--t about anything feeling.
I used to think I could help this world become a better place or that at least I could help someone else through it. The last 10 years have made me fully realize there is no help for a world that's hell bent on going back in time. I see more injustice now than ever in my almost 50 years of life. Just watching the news is sometimes unbearable. Rage, disgust, disdain, depression, they're all natural reactions to this existence.
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
167
I despise humanity. Last time I was in a city with stray cats, I spent way more time socializing with them than with humans.

And the cats apprecaite it more too!!!
 
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Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined my whole life
Jul 17, 2026
199
Oh i relate so much
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
2,023
all companies and governments are run by complete morons that have no idea what they are doing and it drives me crazy.
Or they know exactly what they're doing. Greed. All ruled by greed.
My company was run by a man with the best heart. Hated to layoff anyone. Managed to never do it once in 35 years. Some terminations for cause but even those were rare.
Now we're owned by private equity. Many layoffs. They do not care. Bottom line is all that matters.
Evil. And politicians let it happen. They could block these things.
I'm only speaking from my experiences. I'm sure there are cases of morons too. I've done incredibly stupid things and hurt people in the process. I'm ashamed of it.
 

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