Has anything really (spontaneously) triggered you lately?

[Cockney_Rebel]

I just listened to (still am) Boulevard of Broken Dreams, by Green Day, and it really triggered me to OD.

To the point of having goosebumps.

Has anything spontaneously triggered you recently? If so, what was it and how did it make you feel?

 

[Z-bar]

When I'm in a depressive slump I listen to music that multiplies my ideation.
I think I am addicted to sadness sometimes it feels good to sit in it.

But to answer your question, I was doing okay yesterday until I saw a couple flirting, in love with each others company, and I just slowly came apart. I had relationships when I was younger that clicked on so many levels and I just cheated like a dog, I hate myself for that. I believe I lost those that were put on my path for a reason.

If I could just meet someone who loves like I do, unconditionally, I think everything would be different, including the desire to ctb .

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

When I'm in a depressive slump I listen to music that multiplies my ideation.
I think I am addicted to sadness sometimes it feels good to sit in it.

But to answer your question, I was doing okay yesterday until I saw a couple flirting, in love with each others company, and I just slowly came apart. I had relationships when I was younger that clicked on so many levels and I just cheated like a dog, I hate myself for that. I believe I lost those that were put on my path for a reason.

If I could just meet someone who loves like I do, unconditionally, I think everything would be different, including the desire to ctb .

Your words resonate with me.

Feeling comfortable, or at home with depression, I can relate to.

Also about girls who have absolutely doted on me in my younger years, only for me to cut them loose. I've had new cars bought me, holidays paid for, Cartier rings, girls wanting to have babies with me, the works.

However, I do have a diagnoses of EUPD & OCD, so I can see, retrospectively, that I was getting rid of them, before they abandoned me.

More than one girl has said to me "you will end up a very sad, and lonely person" and you know what? They were all correct.

Sending love to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nearly everything makes me feel worse, which is why I see it as better to stay away from people and isolate myself. I find it very depressing when people talk about the future as I have so much dread associated with it. I know that things will get worse for me so I do not want to think about it. The only future that I want is one where I do not exist. I am very easily upset by things and the slightest thing can make me feel so much worse. I do not see a point to living when everyday is just suffering. Being alive hurts me and the worst part is that it is so difficult to exit.