Has anyone told you to die?

[nitrogenous]

I've been told to die so many times by my mom and I used to brush it off, but the more she did it and the more I realise how messed up she is and the abuse she has done to me, the more I got hooked in the idea of ending my life to "satisfy" her while at the same time being sarcastic "sure, here you'll have a dead daughter soon"

 

[copioushopelessness]

I've heard it at least 60 times just since last night. I wish I had it in me to live out of spite. To outlive the people who didn't want to see me succeed. I shouldn't have spoke to this person. I wanted a chance to clear the air. I wanted to go PEACEFULLY. I don't want my last moments to be that there were a few people who wanted me to suffer until my "last gurgling breath"
"You're all alone in this world" hopefully I can find someone to talk to before I go. Until then sorry for the posts sasu fam.

I've been told to die so many times by my mom and I used to brush it off, but the more she did it and the more I realise how messed up she is and the abuse she has done to me, the more I got hooked in the idea of ending my life to "satisfy" her while at the same time being sarcastic "sure, here you'll have a dead daughter soon"

I hope her words haunt her. Don't do it to "satisfy" her. I hope you can have a better life without her abuse.

I've been told to die so many times by my mom and I used to brush it off, but the more she did it and the more I realise how messed up she is and the abuse she has done to me, the more I got hooked in the idea of ending my life to "satisfy" her while at the same time being sarcastic "sure, here you'll have a dead daughter soon"

I wish the people who were supposed to protect us didn't do this to us.

 

[witchcraft]

I'm not going to pretend to be a good person on here because I have nothing to gain and I won't be around much longer.

I'm not proud of it but the past year or so I've told the type of people who make me feel the way that I do that I hope they die.

No, I don't apologize. I don't care anymore.

If I knew someone was having the same thoughts as me, I wouldn't say it. I say it when I firmly believe those people genuinely do not give a singular shit anyway. Those same people hope that I kill myself and so the feeling is mutual as far as I'm concerned.

They'll sleep easy knowing only one of us will actually do it and it won't be them, so what does it matter.

 

[trulyautistic]

I'm so sorry to hear you've had to endure all of that. Some people are truly despicable! You deserve love, kindness and to be treated with dignity. I wish you much strength!

thank you bro i really appreciate it wish you strength to.

 

[copioushopelessness]

I'm not going to pretend to be a good person on here because I have nothing to gain and I won't be around much longer.

I'm not proud of it but the past year or so I've told the type of people who make me feel the way that I do that I hope they die.

No, I don't apologize. I don't care anymore.

If I knew someone was having the same thoughts as me, I wouldn't say it. I say it when I firmly believe those people genuinely do not give a singular shit anyway. Those same people hope that I kill myself and so the feeling is mutual as far as I'm concerned.

They'll sleep easy knowing only one of us will actually do it and it won't be them, so what does it matter.

I totally understand this. But would you say it to someone who didn't deserve it over something small? Probably not. Either way I get it. I told my own mother to die after a lifetime of her abuse then letting her back into my life only to slap me for not wanting to hear more of her shit after letting her back in. Then she died. She told my dad she was waiting for me to text and apologize like I usually do. No apology for the slap but I was supposed to apologize for telling her to die. I was debating on it just to end the fight but didn't get the chance. Do I feel bad about it. Yes, I didn't know she was going to die that soon but sometimes I still want to resurrect her and tell her to fuck off again (at least for a while) but leave it at that and not let it get to me. Fuck the people who made me feel this way. Like you said, sometimes the feeling is mutual fuck me? No, fuck yourself.
Most people absolutely suck. I wish this world would be nuked already. Take the decision to die out of my own hands.

 

[wishingiwasok]

I've been told to thousands of times for the past 8 years by someone I gave too many chances to. They have also talked ill of the dead, my parents. His own cousins. He told his cousin to kill himself then he did.
Among MANY other shitty things that was said to me. I should've stopped talking to him the first time but each time I tried to defend myself or give him chances to redeem himself it would go back to the same shit. I didn't realize that even though I've always had a tough life it wasn't so bad until I met him. In fact I had a lot going for me. Or at least "potential" everyone kept telling me to live up to my potential..Sure I had trauma and severe health problems but besides that it was mostly peaceful. I wish I could go back at least a decade and do so many things differently. A path that wouldnt of led me to being insecure enough to meet someone like him. He sabotaged my whole life in many ways. Isolated me. Humiliated me. Made me act out of character to the point of destroying my own life. I lost what should've been my best years. I lost my mind. My health declined further..
"You're all alone, your parents are dead, you're going to die alone." I wish my ctb wouldnt give some people the sick satisfaction of being right. People were wrong about me until I let them turn me into something I didn't want to be.

Unfortunately many people throughout my childhood, usually during some sort of bullying. It was really unfortunate because most of these people didn't even know anything about me. We weren't having any sort of conflict. There was just something about me I guess that made them want to hurt me or made them think I shouldn't be alive.

 

[Arvayn]

Hell yeah, they have. And to that I say, right back at them! It's okay, though. They can live if they want to.

 

[ppyppyppy]

My mother told me to just do it instead of talking about it.

 

[NameOfAction]

Only once.
( I mean, technically, I'm sure it's been said many times online or as a joke. But only one time that counted.)

My best and only friend, a person I loved. A person that loved me. It became difficult due to my mental health problems, they got burned out and fed up. They said 'then fucking do it' or something. We never spoke again.

They made me a better person. Those words did, too. I don't blame them and I don't think they should have said that. But I learned so much from their friendship, and a lot still from the way we parted.

Being mentally ill and suicidal sucks, but being a loved one of the mentally ill and suicidal probably sucks more. She's doing well now. I'm not, but we both knew I wasn't gonna get better. I am forever glad she chose to not go down with me

My mother told me to just do it instead of talking about it.

Oo, my mom never said it in so many words, but she always says 'real depressed people just kill themselves, they don't whine about it'

 

[ih34rty0u]

actually my mother did tonight (but it wasn't the first time, obviously)

 

[SweetMemories]

my mom told me that a lot.

 

[Gomomon]

I've been told to thousands of times for the past 8 years by someone I gave too many chances to. They have also talked ill of the dead, my parents. His own cousins. He told his cousin to kill himself then he did.
Among MANY other shitty things that was said to me. I should've stopped talking to him the first time but each time I tried to defend myself or give him chances to redeem himself it would go back to the same shit. I didn't realize that even though I've always had a tough life it wasn't so bad until I met him. In fact I had a lot going for me. Or at least "potential" everyone kept telling me to live up to my potential..Sure I had trauma and severe health problems but besides that it was mostly peaceful. I wish I could go back at least a decade and do so many things differently. A path that wouldnt of led me to being insecure enough to meet someone like him. He sabotaged my whole life in many ways. Isolated me. Humiliated me. Made me act out of character to the point of destroying my own life. I lost what should've been my best years. I lost my mind. My health declined further..
"You're all alone, your parents are dead, you're going to die alone." I wish my ctb wouldnt give some people the sick satisfaction of being right. People were wrong about me until I let them turn me into something I didn't want to be.

I'm sorry you wasted so much time on such a person. I've also spent countless years dealing with someone like that. My own father threatened to poison my mother, and he's joked about killing me numerous times, yet I still have to be on his good side for finances, among otherthings, so he's not so easy to cut off completely from my life. He tries to gaslight me into thinking he didn't say those things in passing, but I remember. It can mess you up hearing all that shit all the time, I get it.