Harder over time to CTB?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Do you feel like it's getting harder to motivate to CTB The longer you put it off? The more times you attempt and fail? If you attempted and failed, are you tempted to try something more sure fire? Like jumping From a very high space which is guaranteed to succeed?

 

[FuneralCry]

I think going through failed attempts can make many people lose confidence in their ability to be successful in ctb. I did not get very far in my attempt, it probably did not even count as an attempt. I think I was scared that it would fail at the time. Of course we all deserve a reliable, peaceful exit. I think in my case, when I get desperate I will finally get the motivation to end it once and for all. I should have been gone years ago. If it was easier, I would already be gone.