Venting Hard to study

[orange]

It's so hard to study and concentrate on exams when all my mind wants to do is ruminate and fantasize about suicide. I've been awake for two hours now but haven't been able to get out of bed, I feel like if I stop looking at my screen and be alone with my thoughts for a second it'll be unbearable. I've already lost the entire morning bc I woke up late in the first place.

I'm supposedly studying for my dream job, the thing I told people I wanted to be when I was 5, and I feel even more suicidal than 2 years ago. I've also tried working, still suicidal. I've tried getting therapy, they won't return my calls or answer emails lmfao.

Thank you for providing me a place to vent.

 

[Onthe29th]

I feel the same way. I just started school this week and all I've been thinking about is ctb. I get anxiety when I'm not on this site and it took everything in me not to try and access it while I was at school.

At this point, this website is my stress relief; I don't even need to actually look for anything for it to work either

 

[FuneralCry]

I know it can be hard when everything seems hopeless. This life can be very depressing. I'm sorry you are going through this. I wish you the best.

 

[orange]

I know it can be hard when everything seems hopeless. This life can be very depressing. I'm sorry you are going through this. I wish you the best.

Thanks, you're always so sweet to everyone here.

 

[lmon]

It's so hard to study and concentrate on exams when all my mind wants to do is ruminate and fantasize about suicide. I've been awake for two hours now but haven't been able to get out of bed, I feel like if I stop looking at my screen and be alone with my thoughts for a second it'll be unbearable. I've already lost the entire morning bc I woke up late in the first place.

I'm supposedly studying for my dream job, the thing I told people I wanted to be when I was 5, and I feel even more suicidal than 2 years ago. I've also tried working, still suicidal. I've tried getting therapy, they won't return my calls or answer emails lmfao.

Thank you for providing me a place to vent.

This is the same problem I'm having. The thoughts are all consuming and I've been like this for a year. How am I supposed to concentrate with these thoughts????

 

[Hurt]

Same. It's hard to concentrate when I feel everything I do is pointless.

 

[stoicseal]

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. Having so much on your plate while having little to no will to live is a painful combination. Finals season is rough man, definitely can empathize with you there