got the strength to ctb

[ornitier199]

finally had enough and said fuck it time to ctb. im walking aimless in high risk areas in hopes i'll cross tone who can take me out. I'm surprised I havent gotten robbed by now, I'll be literally begging them to kill me instead. they can take all the 2 dollars i have afterwards just mainly kill me first.
i got bit by something a little while back but not enough to kil me.beforehand a bitch tried recommending ect and its like why the living fuck would i have my memory erased to be forced lived by you? that was a while ago though but still stupid
im gonna die tonight no matter what or how. i left my pc on as i always do with the site and all other notes i left on the hdd if im found they'll know who insinuated me off the edge tonight
not like i need a reason to kill myself.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I haven't see one person come on here and tell you to go and do anything. That's all you. And THAT'S what they'll see if you don't come back and are killed. All on YOU, as it should be. It's your life. Do as you want. I don't tell anyone to ctb, I don't tell anyone not to ctb. I think it's a really stupid way to go, BTW. To each their own, I guess. Have a nice walk.

 

[ornitier199]

first of all, I wasn't talking about anyone here obviously, but someone irl. And that whole extra bs crap you could've kept to yourself. You don't like it stfu and keep scrolling. hit the ignore button instead and walk away.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that this life can be torture when you are desperate to leave. Living really is so painful. More than anything I wish that ctb is easier. To me, it is so unfair how we are forced to exist, yet it is so difficult to leave. I hope that you find relief from suffering in whatever happens, I wish you the best.