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Goyasan

Goyasan

Ah'm tryin' my best!
Nov 24, 2019
29
I finally got, what I hope to be a legitimate source, for SN. If all goes well, I'll be able to CtB either early to mid January.

I want to purchase it now, but I haven't gotten paid yet and the holidays are in full swing. While I don't plan on CtB'ing during the holidays because I feel that would be cruel to my family I also don't want the package to arrive during it too. I feel a mix of apprehension and excitement. Soon, I'll be at rest. I can finally atone my existence. I've always felt there was something deeply, ontologically, and innately wrong with me and I'm tired of living a lie.

The only thing I'm really really nervous about is a welfare check from ordering from them.
 
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dalemar

Student
Nov 20, 2025
174
Wishing you good luck. I hope you receive the product without troubles.
I have mine as well, and I hope to CTB in january.
 
Goyasan

Goyasan

Ah'm tryin' my best!
Nov 24, 2019
29
Wishing you good luck. I hope you receive the product without troubles.
I have mine as well, and I hope to CTB in january.
Thank you. I hope so, the last thing I need is to be scammed.
Did you happen to buy from a supplier that starts with a D? Good luck to you when your time comes.
 
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dalemar

Student
Nov 20, 2025
174
Thank you. I hope so, the last thing I need is to be scammed.
Did you happen to buy from a supplier that starts with a D? Good luck to you when your time comes.
No, I purchased mine locally, from a chemical company.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,354
I just want to rest as well, to never suffer again is all I wish for, I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for.
 

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