Goodbye

[Iwant2sleepforever]

I wrote my note, I love all of you. You are all great people. Thank you for caring about me. If I don't log back in this site within a couple of days it probably means I'm at peace.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I wrote my note, I love all of you. You are all great people. Thank you for caring about me. If I don't log back in this site within a couple of days it probably means I'm at peace.

My gaming buddy is staying! More games for days!

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Peace be with you *hugs*

 

[Miss clefable]

Hugs find peace friend

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

Your name is legit. One day, whether soon or not, we will all be sleeping forever. I hope that you can get the peace that eternal rest brings, if it's what you truly want. We are all just 'hanging around', whether it's now or a few years, it makes no difference really. Good luck and peace to you.

 

[Taylored]

Good luck on your journey wish you the best <3

 

[blueming]

Good luck, I hope you find your peace.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I wish u the best

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

Well I'm back I tried it, I can now say I had a near death experience. I guess part of me still wants to live. I was so close to passing out. I just couldn't stop thinking about my friends and family and my mother finding me. I'm so sorry I mislead you guys. I was so sure I was going to die today. I guess there's a reason why I failed, I'll take it for what it's worth.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Well I'm back I tried it, I can now say I had a near death experience. I guess part of me still wants to live. I was so close to passing out. I just couldn't stop thinking about my friends and family and my mother finding me. I'm so sorry I mislead you guys. I was so sure I was going to die today. I guess there's a reason why I failed, I'll take it for what it's worth.

Yay! You're back! Thank you for telling us right away instead of waiting a day or a week later to say you failed and couldn't go through with it. Lol.

 

[lv-gras]

Well I'm back I tried it, I can now say I had a near death experience. I guess part of me still wants to live. I was so close to passing out. I just couldn't stop thinking about my friends and family and my mother finding me. I'm so sorry I mislead you guys. I was so sure I was going to die today. I guess there's a reason why I failed, I'll take it for what it's worth.

misleading? nah.

wb

 

[Miss clefable]

Well I'm back I tried it, I can now say I had a near death experience. I guess part of me still wants to live. I was so close to passing out. I just couldn't stop thinking about my friends and family and my mother finding me. I'm so sorry I mislead you guys. I was so sure I was going to die today. I guess there's a reason why I failed, I'll take it for what it's worth.

Hugs don't be sorry also don't let others opinions matter this something you must do it's your choice

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

To go into more details, the problem is not the method itself. If I held my breath for just a little bit longer I would've passed out. It's just part of me wanting to live. I guess I'm happy I didn't have hurt my friends and family by killing myself today. It gives me some relief. I'm glad I picked this method because other methods come with a lot more risk if failed.

 

[Ben]

To go into more details, the problem is not the method itself. If I held my breath for just a little bit longer I would've passed out. It's just part of me wanting to live. I guess I'm happy I didn't have hurt my friends and family by killing myself today. It gives me some relief. I'm glad I picked this method because other methods come with a lot more risk if failed.

Thank you for coming back and updating. Glad you're still with us!

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

If I was completely alone and no one cared about me, I knew I would've kept holding my breath. It's the people who cares about me that stopped me from ctb today.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

To go into more details, the problem is not the method itself. If I held my breath for just a little bit longer I would've passed out. It's just part of me wanting to live. I guess I'm happy I didn't have hurt my friends and family by killing myself today. It gives me some relief. I'm glad I picked this method because other methods come with a lot more risk if failed.

I'm glad you realize that part of you wants to live. Many people here refuse to believe part of them still wants to live. Hope is still there even if you don't see it! At least now if you do get to the lowest point in your life with no hope left, you know which method to go for. :)

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

If I was completely alone and no one cared about me, I knew I would've kept holding my breath. It's the people who cares about me that stopped me from ctb today.

social connections are so important

an unpleasant realisation

 

[MachineGunDani]

Yay! You're back! Thank you for telling us right away instead of waiting a day or a week later to say you failed and couldn't go through with it. Lol.

U took the words outta my mouth! At least we don't have to wonder what happened lol welcome back tho @Iwant2sleepforever sleepforever

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

I'm glad you realize that part of you wants to live. Many people here refuse to believe part of them still wants to live. Hope is still there even if you don't see it! At least now if you do get to the lowest point in your life with no hope left, you know which method to go for. :)

Thank you, I honestly got a lot to look foward to in my life right now now that I think about it. I'm about to get a job and now that I think about I'm actually excited for it. Having ADD and sitting around the house all day doesn't mix well. I'm not saying that I won't try again in the future. But I know I have to at least stick around a little while longer.

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

Thank you for all the support @everyone.

 

[bbq1]

Did you clear browsing history after logging out?

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

Did you clear browsing history after logging out?

I always go on incognito.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Welcome back, honestly I'm also glad you didn't succeed, and that you weren't hurt <3 I hope the near death experience was pleasant, that's inspiring <3

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

Welcome back, honestly I'm also glad you didn't succeed, and that you weren't hurt <3 I hope the near death experience was pleasant, that's inspiring <3

I guess I could say it was pleasant. I had my music and I felt comfortable. When I took my head out of the water I was surprisingly pretty calm considering the circumstances.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I guess I could say it was pleasant. I had my music and I felt comfortable. When I took my head out of the water I was surprisingly pretty calm considering the circumstances.

That's good *wags my tail happily*

 

[zadig777]

sry if it bothers u that i ask but
what were ur method for suicide if u wanna give some details tnx
if that doesnt bother u ofc :DD

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

sry if it bothers u that i ask but
what were ur method for suicide if u wanna give some details tnx
if that doesnt bother u ofc :DD

No problem. I used the shallow water drowning method which is in one of the pins on the forum. I felt comfortable for it being a near death experiences. I just did some jumping jacks and then I started hyperventilating. I tried holding my breath 3 times and all three times especially the last I felt very dizzy and almost relaxed. I knew I just had to keep holding my breath to pass out but I couldn't because apparently part of me still wanted to live. After the third time I just laid there in the bath tub and felt kind of relaxed. Right now I feel okay. A little weak and out of breath but the worst part is a little water in my ears lol.

 

[zadig777]

good for u
at least u tried for real
near death experience will probably make u love life forever i guess

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

good for u
at least u tried for real
near death experience will probably make u love life forever i guess

I wouldn't say all that.