going to mojor xanax withdrawal

[Insomniac]

I ran out of xanax after trying to overdose the other day and now I'm fucking losing it.

I feel sick, can't stop crying and don't have any alcohol on hand either. There is nothing I can do but be in this state of utter helplessness, restlessness. How pathetic. I bragged multiple times on here about being finally addiction free but was bs because I did try to overdose out of the blue by taking more than 250pills.

I'm so full of crap, so full of bs guys. so full of shit. just like my dad. I'm an addict just like him. And I'm a selfish bitch just like my mom.

I don't know what to do. I'm unworthy of trust. I'll always relapse, I'll always ne messed up.
I'm an idiot.

I also bragged about not procrastinating but it was only elapse I was under xanax that I was able to not procrastinate. Now I can't focus on shit.

Fuck me.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Breaking an addiction-free streak is a cold, dark affliction

All you can do is try forgive yourself for one more try. No matter what.

 

[BigGimpin]

I feel your pain brother, I also tried to CTB on zannies last November, woke up 2 days later in the ER, I was PISSED and still am.

....I had been on the taper down method from them for like 6 months and even that was hell! Got switched to Klonopin and though they dont do shit but keep the withdrawals away.

I know this isnt helpful, wish I was there to give you support, Ive been there though. Stay strong.

btw: love your screen name, Im a full blown insomniac.