Going to ctb on July 26th

[Cats26]

I've been a member of this forum for a bit over a month I believe but this is my first time posting. I've chosen a date to ctb, July 26th. It's still a bit of a ways away so I have time to plan everything.
I've attempted suicide twice, at ages 14 and 19. I'm 21 now and desperate to make it work this time.
I've tried for years to get better and have hope but sometimes that just can't happen. After being sexually and physically abused almost my entire childhood, and spending all of my adolescent years trapped up in eating disorders, drug abuse, and self harm, I'm tired of everything and I'm tired of trying. I've made peace with the fact that it won't get better until it ends.
I just wanted to get this out there. I'm very excited for July 26th.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is so cruel and I'm sorry you have had to suffer so much. I know that it can be hard to carry on when everything is so hopeless. I wish you the best.

 

[Cats26]

Life is so cruel and I'm sorry you have had to suffer so much. I know that it can be hard to carry on when everything is so hopeless. I wish you the best.

Thank you, I wish you the best too with whatever you have going on right now.