god how i hate myself

[NothingElseMatters]

i'm such a loser, i'm almost 30 years old, still in college, and the college i go is on the top 5 of the worst college in my country, absolutely shitty, i will cerainly never get a job with that kind of degree, i've never had a girlfriend, i've lost all the money i had, no one likes to be around me except my mother. i seriously don't know what i'm waiting for yeah i know, i'm still here because i'm a pussy that can't even fuckin kill myself.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Have you tried taking a walk?

 

[Nolife33]

I don't work but my life is fine.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is horrible being alive as there is no escape from ourselves. Of course it is not cowardly the fact that you are still here, suicide is difficult as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier to leave I would already be gone. I wish you the best and I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.

 

[rationaltake]

i'm such a loser, i'm almost 30 years old, still in college, and the college i go is on the top 5 of the worst college in my country, absolutely shitty, i will cerainly never get a job with that kind of degree, i've never had a girlfriend, i've lost all the money i had, no one likes to be around me except my mother. i seriously don't know what i'm waiting for yeah i know, i'm still here because i'm a pussy that can't even fuckin kill myself.

I get it. I'm older than you and a real loser

 

[Rational man]

Do.you have a strong maternal connection with your mum ?

i never did have with mine. I was too independent mindset.

 

[motel rooms]

I don't work but my life is fine.

Not everyone is Dutch. There's such a thing as homelessness in many countries, especially in the US.

 

[toforigivelife]

i'm such a loser, i'm almost 30 years old, still in college, and the college i go is on the top 5 of the worst college in my country, absolutely shitty, i will cerainly never get a job with that kind of degree, i've never had a girlfriend, i've lost all the money i had, no one likes to be around me except my mother. i seriously don't know what i'm waiting for yeah i know, i'm still here because i'm a pussy that can't even fuckin kill myself.

Are you living on campus? Do you have a place to live?

 

[Ashu]

I get it. I'm older than you and a real loser

I strongly suspect I'm even older and an even bigger loser.

 

[rationaltake]

I strongly suspect I'm even older and an even bigger loser.

Well we're both on here so there you go. I'm 63. Take care.

 

[EraseRewind]

I'm a 52 year old loser who lost everything because I'm a disgrace. No job, no hope so I hide out at college and I've given myself 12 months from September to sort myself out. If I don't then I have my SN and I'm going for it.

 

[Ch92921]

I hate myself very much, too.
Ich

Not everyone is Dutch. There's such a thing as homelessness in many countries, especially in the US.

but not this worse here in Europe. Americans should be ashamed about that.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm 54. Went to a top college. Unemployed. Single. Depressed. No excuse for being here lost.

 

[Ch92921]

I'm 54. Went to a top college. Unemployed. Single. Depressed. No excuse for being here lost.

Totally understanble.

 

[rationaltake]

I'm a 52 year old loser who lost everything because I'm a disgrace. No job, no hope so I hide out at college and I've given myself 12 months from September to sort myself out. If I don't then I have my SN and I'm going for it.

I hope everything works out for you and you can turn things around.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

Have you tried taking a walk?

what for?

Do.you have a strong maternal connection with your mum ?

i never did have with mine. I was too independent mindset.

we kinda do nowadays.

Are you living on campus? Do you have a place to live?

I don't live on campus, I live with my mother.

 

[toforigivelife]

what for?


we kinda do nowadays.


I don't live on campus, I live with my mother.

Do you feel like you can take time to reflect and do some soul searching to find out how you could piece together a happier existence?

Maybe once you're happier and more comfortable in your life things will start to fall into place.

Or do circumstances not allow for that? Or are you past trying to do that?

Maybe the "normal" or more mainstream way of doing things won't make you happy.

I know that you are severely depressed right now and that it's hard to see the good in anything when you're in that state but it's good that you're getting a degree.

Maybe you can apply it to a way of living that suits you better.

And instead of looking for the type of woman you feel you "should" have, look for the type of woman that you have things in common with, one that understands you.

Maybe even someone who understands your depression.

Someone who you can share things with rather than someone you feel you have to impress.

I know clinical depression can impact our ability to form romantic relationships.

I'm sorry if I sound like I'm trotting out tired advice.

 

[Ashu]

I'm a 52 year old loser who lost everything because I'm a disgrace. No job, no hope so I hide out at college and I've given myself 12 months from September to sort myself out. If I don't then I have my SN and I'm going for it.

I'm fifty-one, and what you describe sounds very familiar.

 

[flametrees]

i'm such a loser, i'm almost 30 years old, still in college, and the college i go is on the top 5 of the worst college in my country, absolutely shitty, i will cerainly never get a job with that kind of degree, i've never had a girlfriend, i've lost all the money i had, no one likes to be around me except my mother. i seriously don't know what i'm waiting for yeah i know, i'm still here because i'm a pussy that can't even fuckin kill myself.

I'm sorry to hear you feel this way. But please know that college does not define us or what can happen to us in life. I am older than you and I went to a top university and graduated with top marks. I had an amazing job. HOWEVER I lost it all through mental illness and sickness. I am a disgrace to myself and others.