Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence is a mistake that has only caused suffering.
It truly has only ever caused suffering and I'll just always see existence as the most cruel, terrible mistake, to exist will always mean to suffer and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence so painful, terrible and torturous.

For me non-existence is just all I see as positive, I'll just always see existence as the problem and there's just so much terrible suffering and pain in this deeply undesirable existence that I just always saw as a mistake, I'll always see existence as the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence so cruel and torturous and in this existence so dreadful and futile only non-existence can bring me any peace, all I see as positive is never suffering again. For me eternal, dreamless sleep is all that could ever be desirable in this existence I'm just always so tired of that causes all this suffering all for the sake of it, all I want is to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this painful, cruel existence.
I truly would never wish for this painful, cruel existence of torturous suffering and it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed at all, all I want is peace from this existence so terrible and dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything. In this existence so dreadful and cruel non-existence is just all I see as desirable and I just wish this existence was never imposed, to exist will always mean to suffer, all that existence ever does is just cause all this pain and cruelty all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I could see as positive.
It truly is all I could see as positive in this existence of terrible, torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so cruel and futile that I just always saw as the problem.

For me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence so dreadful and torturous, I just hope and wish to be free from this existence that only causes all of this futile, unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever causes harm.
It truly does only ever cause harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always see existence as a mistake, all I want is to be free from this torturous, harmful existence that only ever causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.

I'll always see existence as an abomination, to me existence will always be the problem that just tortures existing beings, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of this terrible, dreadful existence, I just want to never suffer in this harmful existence ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

There are no disadvantages to never suffering again.
There truly are no disadvantages to never suffering again and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, for me non-existence is just all that could ever be desirable and positive and I wish I never existed more than anything.

For me non-existence is the only relief in this existence of dreadful, torturous suffering that I never would had chosen that just causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me in this painful, cruel existence.
It truly does solve everything for me in this painful, cruel existence and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence, non-existence solves everything as there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten and I'll just always prefer to not exist. All I want is to never suffer again, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I truly will always prefer the peace of non-existence no matter what, in this existence of torturous suffering non-existence is just the only relief for me. I wish I never suffered more than anything, all that this existence ever does is just torture existing beings, I'll always see existence as the problem that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to be burdened with this existence.
No matter what I truly would never wish to be burdened with this terrible, torturous existence and I'll just always find it a burden to exist, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this futile, deeply undesirable existence that I just always saw as a mistake.

All I hope for is to never suffer again, I just want some peace from this existence so torturous and cruel that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence is just all I see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only causes suffering.
It truly does only cause all this terrible, futile suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so dreadful and torturous that I just always saw as a mistake, I'll always see existence as the problem and to exist will always mean to suffer.

All I want is to be free from the abomination of existence that just causes all this pain, cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

To be free from all suffering is all I'be hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this terrible, futile existence rather all I want is to be free, I just want true permanent peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it. I just want to never exist again, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence of torturous, futile suffering that I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

So terrible how dying peacefully is made inaccessible.
It truly is so terrible how dying peacefully is made inaccessible by humans who want others to suffer for as long as possible in this existence so torturous and futile, for me non-existence is just all that could ever be desirable in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

I always suffer so much from being trapped in this terrible, horrific world where humans are forced to be tortured against their wishes, all I want is to never suffer ever again, to suffer in this existence will always be an abomination.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never any point to existing.
There could never be any point to existing, it truly is just dreadful suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so dreadful and torturous to suffer in this futile, cruel existence that to me will just always be a mistake, all I want is to never suffer again. I just want this existence of unnecessary suffering to be all forgotten and erased for me so it's like I never suffered at all, there truly is no point to being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence saves me from suffering.
It truly does save me from all pain and suffering which is why it's all I hope for, all I want is to never suffer in this existence so terrible and cruel ever again, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution to find peace from this existence so terrible and torturous.

Ceasing to exist saves me from suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always see existing as just being suffering, I always suffer as a result of this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be an abomination.
It truly will always be an abomination that just tortures existing beings and to me it'll just always be a mistake to suffer in this existence so terrible, cruel and deeply undesirable, all I want is for this existence to be all erased for me.

I just want it to be like I never suffered at all in this torturous harmful existence that just causes all this endless cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the problem to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence itself as the true problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace and relief from, all I want is for non-existence to solve everything for me.

I just want all to be gone, forgotten and erased in the peace of non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering, I'll just always prefer to peacefully cease existing no matter what, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for freedom from all suffering.
To be free from all pain and suffering is just all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather I just want peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace from the suffering of this dreadful, futile existence that I just never would had chosen that only ever tortures existing beings.

Simply just existing is enough to make me wish for peace and I'll only be at peace when all is gone and forgotten in non-existence, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever tortures existing beings.
It truly does with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll always see it as the most terrible, cruel mistake to suffer in this painful, torturous existence, to me existence will always be an abomination.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, all that existence ever does is just torture existing beings and the suffering of this terrible, cruel existence is endless, I just want to be free from this horrific world where existing beings suffer endlessly.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist saves me from all suffering.
It truly does save me from all suffering in this existence so terrible and torturous that I just always saw as a mistake and no matter what I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over being burdened with this existence so futile that just causes all this dreadful, futile suffering.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, I just want non-existence to bring me true peace from all future suffering and there are no disadvantages to never suffering again, as long as I exist I truly will just hope to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die and I always suffer as a result of waiting for death in this terrible, torturous and cruel existence that never should had been imposed and I'll just always see existing as dreadful, futile suffering.

Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want peace and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence so dreadful that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this existence so torturous.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this existence so torturous and cruel and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, nothing would make me wish for this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake.

To me existence will just always be the problem, all I could ever hope for is the peace of non-existence where this torturous existence I just always saw as an abomination is finally all gone and forgotten, all I hope for is no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would make me wish for this existence so torturous.
I truly would never wish for this existence so terrible and torturous rather I just want some peace, in this existence of futile, dreadful suffering non-existence is just all I see as desirable, all I see as positive is being permanently unconscious of the terrible mistake of existence.

I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and for me suffering in this existence will always be so dreadful, I'll always find it the most futile, torturous burden to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so dreadful.
It truly is so dreadful and all that existence ever does is just cause all this cruelty, pain and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous and dreadful to suffer in this existence.

I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake and I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence is just all I see as positive, I just hope and wish to never suffer again and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for this existence to be erased.
For this existence to be erased truly is all I hope for and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence and for me non-existence is just the only peace.

I just want this existence to be erased so it's like I never suffered at all, ceasing to exist is all I see as positive in this existence of dreadful, futile suffering, I'll just always see existence as the problem that only ever harms and tortures existing beings all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will just always be only suffering to me.
It truly is only suffering to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so terrible and torturous, all I want is to never suffer again, in this existence so torturous and dreadful non-existence is just all I could ever hope for.

I just wish for peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake that just tortures existing beings, to me existence will just always just be suffering, to exist means to suffer and I wish I never suffered more than anything in this existence so terrible.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of the suffering.
I truly am always so tired of the suffering in this torturous, futile existence and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is the peace of non-existence where this terrible, cruel existence is finally all forgotten and no longer my problem.

To me existence will always be the most dreadful mistake that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it and I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd only be relieved to never suffer in this torturous existence again.
I truly would only be relieved and no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so torturous and terrible that I just always saw as a mistake. In this existence of futile suffering non-existence is just the only peace for me and as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, I just want to be free from all pain and suffering, I'll always find it so torturous to suffer in this painful, deeply undesirable existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

This torturous existence will always be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence so terrible and cruel rather I just want some peace, existing to me will always be so futile.

I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it and I always suffer as a result of waiting for death in this terrible, torturous existence that just causes all this dreadful suffering, I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist will always be so deeply undesirable.
It truly will always be so undesirable and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this terrible, torturous existence that I just always saw as a mistake, for me the true permanent peace of non-existence is just all I could ever see as desirable.

I wish I never suffered more than anything in this existence that just harms and tortures existing beings all for the sake of it, I'll just always see existence as the problem, I just wish I never suffered more than anything in this existence so torturous.

 

[CinerateX]

Hey FuneralCry,

I remember your threads back when I first joined, and here you are still going, I hope this place is helping you cope. It seems so at least.

Anyway, I was curious to know how you were doing, and hell, how you were still going? You always seem to have such a sophisticated way with words.

P.S. I'm currently listening to "I Was Here", it's a fascinating story, though admittedlt a bit inaccurate. Regardless, would recommend.