Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is peace, I just wish for peace from the pain and suffering of this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence, I just want to be gone, for me non-existence is just the only relief, all I hope for is dreamless, eternal sleep where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me. All I wish for is peace and I always suffer so much from being denied the option to just painlessly cease existing so finally I can be free from the pain and suffering of this dreadful, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so terrible to me, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, all that existence does is just cause pain and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful, cruel existence I never would had chosen.