Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

All I want is peace.
Peace from this existence is just all I hope for, I just want to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible.

I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, I wish for peace, existence to me is just so cruel, dreadful and torturous and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd never wish for this existence that causes and brings all this suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish to exist.
No matter what I really would never wish to exist rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake is finally all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so dreadful and cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief in this futile existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting for death, it's all so cruel and terrible and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace.

I just want to never wake ever again, I just hope for peace and I'll only be at peace in dreamless, eternal sleep where this torturous, cruel existence is all gone and I suffer simply from existing, I truly would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence so dreadful I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
I really will always find it so torturous to exist and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering, cruelty and torture of existing rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this dreadful existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel, torturous and dreadful and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace, I wish for no more suffering, I just want to never suffer again with this torturous existence no longer my problem and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never wake again.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and I'll always see this torturous, cruel existence as only suffering, all I want is to be gone, I just want some peace, I just want to never wake ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wish to never exist again.
No matter what non-existence is all I'll wish for and if it's up to me I'd choose to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered as all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous, cruel and dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing.

All I want is peace from it all, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I just hope and wish to never suffer again with all finally gone and forgotten and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be free from it all, in this existence so torturous and dreadful I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and painful and I always wish I never had to suffer, it really feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I'd never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
I really will always see existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, dreadful torturous existence more than anything, all I hope for is eternal sleep, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering.

Only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal dreamless sleep and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and there's just so much pain in existing, it's all so terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything. I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'll always see existence as the problem, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just hope and wish to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me and bring me any peace from this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain, cruelty and suffering where this deeply undesirable existence is finally all forgotten about and I wish that more than anything I never suffered.

I just should never have been burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as such a torturous burden to exist, I suffer so much as a result of this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to never wake. I just wish for an eternal sleep where this deeply undesirable, cruel futile and dreadful existence is all forgotten and no longer my problem and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and there's just so much suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an abomination to me.
It truly is an abomination to me and I find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, cruelty and suffering as a result and I just suffer so much as a result of existing.

It's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is true permanent peace, I just wish to be free from all the suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to never wake again, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish to be free from the futile, painful, dreadful and torturous abomination of existing and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always see existence as an abomination torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing, as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish to never suffer again. I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence is finally all gone and forgotten and no longer my problem, all I hope for is peace from the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is non-existence, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this dreadful, cruel existence is all gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most harmful mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace.

I just wish for an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and cruel to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and is just all I see as desirable in this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and it's all so terrible.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer again, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering endlessly and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible.

I wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this torturous existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and painful and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is to permanently cease existing. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it truly is all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from the pain and suffering of this deeply undesirable, cruel existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just pointless suffering.
It truly is just pointless suffering and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all forgotten and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this futile, pointless existence.

All I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from it all, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I always just wish and hope to never wake again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing. It's just all so cruel and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, I just want to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, all I want is to never wake, I just wish for peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, I just hope for dreamless eternal sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this futile, torturous existence and I just wish that more than anything I never existed, I just never should had suffered in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so dreadful and I wish that more than anything I never existed, I just never should had been burdened with this dreadful existence and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's always so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing and I'll always see this cruel existence as only suffering, all I want is to never exist again and only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope for the peace of an eternal sleep, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I just want to never wake again, I only hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is forgotten and I can rest, I just hope and wish to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is so much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer and it's all so cruel and terrible to me, more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence.

As long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep where finally I can be at peace with all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and all I want is to permanently cease existing.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain, cruelty and suffering where finally I can rest and I'll always see existing as only suffering, all I could ever hope and wish for is to never suffer again. I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful where I hope and wait to be gone and no matter what I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, I wish I could just choose to never wake again, I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence that to me is only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an unnecessary harm to me.
It truly is always an unnecessary harm to me and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again.

I'll always see it as an abomination to be conscious burdened with this existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had wished for and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

All I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this torturous, cruel existence is finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting for death and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone.

I just want all to be forgotten for me but of course all the suffering continues and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, I always find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this suffering as a result and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I could hope for is to never suffer again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this futile, torturous existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake and I suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, in this existence so dreadful all I want is for non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for.

I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, it's one so dreadful and terrible causing endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone. I just wish for peace from this torturous, futile and undesirable existence I never would had wished for that only caused and brought so much suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist rather all I want is for this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence to be all gone and forgotten with no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing.

It's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I wish I never suffered more than anything and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

I always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this existence, all I want is some peace, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured non-existence is just all I see as positive and is all I hope for. I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and forgotten and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel, dreadful existence, all I want is to never exist again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
I really would never wish to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable existence and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish to never suffer again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief, I just want to be gone, I just want all to be forgotten in eternal sleep and I'd just never wish for any of this, all I want is a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace.
No matter what some peace is all I could ever wish for, I just wish to be free from this dreadful and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence.

It's all so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for peace, I just want to never exist again and for me peace could only lie in an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to never exist again, I'd never wish for any of this suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, all I want is to never wake again and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just hope and wish to never suffer again. I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this dreadful existence that to me is just waiting to die, I could only ever see non-existence as positive, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, futile existence I never would had chosen and just never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just peacefully cease existing.
I truly do always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from and find peace from this torturous existence I never would had chosen.

I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief from this dreadful, cruel existence I search for and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again and as long as I exist I'll only hope for eternal sleep, I just want to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep can take away for me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the torturous, dreadful abomination of existence that I never would had chosen and I wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope and wish to be permanently free from the suffering of existing, I just want to never exist again and I suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is non-existence, I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so torturous and dreadful I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for peace, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence but of course all the suffering continues and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous cruel and futile existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It really is always the problem to me and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence more than anything, all I hope for is to never suffer again.

I just want non-existence to solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself but of course all the suffering just continues and all I want is peace from it all, I just wish to be free from this torturous, cruel existence where I suffer so unnecessarily hoping and waiting to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this futile existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally I can be at peace but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered, I just suffer so much as a result of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I just never should had suffered at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what in this existence that to me is just waiting for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel, dreadful and terrible to me.

I just wish I never existed more than anything, all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake, all I hope for is the peace of non-existence.

I just wish and hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this dreadful existence, it really is all so cruel to me and I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never wake again with no more suffering and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.
I truly do always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer and to never suffer again is just all I see as desirable. I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could take away for me, all I want is to never exist again and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, I just want to be free from it all, all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all that's desirable for me.
It truly is all that's desirable for me and is all I could hope for in this dreadful, futile existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and no matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

As long as I exist I truly will just hope to never suffer again, only the peace of non-existence is desirable for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to never exist again, no matter what I could only see non-existence as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered, I'll just always see it as so dreadful and terrible to be conscious burdened with this existence and as long as I exist all I'll hope for is to never suffer again.

I only hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, futile and dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel, terrible and futile and it feels like I've suffered for so long, all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for peace from this harmful existence, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as the most torturous burden to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never wake.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never wake, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this dreadful, cruel existence is finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is peace from all suffering.

I just want to never wake ever again but of course I continue to suffer, it's just all so terrible and dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, it's all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, futile existence I never would had chosen and never would wish for, for me non-existence is just the only peace and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the suffering of this torturous, cruel existence I never would had chosen that only caused and brought so much pain.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence

That does sound peaceful. While I'd miss online chatting and random little activities, one day, non existance (at least in this realm) will occur, and all I can do is make the most of my time.

I wonder whether painting the "green mountains of non existance" will be helpful, or if just writing here helps one feel better.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is some peace, I just wish for true permanent peace from this dreadful, torturous and futile existence I always saw as a mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much suffering in this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for, all I want is true permanent peace from the dreadful, cruel abomination of existence and I suffer so much as a result of existing.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for no more suffering.
No matter what all I could wish for is no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel futile and unnecessary existence and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing.

All I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never wake again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in this existence I never would had wished for, I just want to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing, no matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, only non-existence can bring me any peace from the futile unnecessary suffering of this torturous existence I never would had chosen.

I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and terrible and there's just so much suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, no matter what I'll always see existence as the problem and to never suffer again is just all I hope for, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence is positive and desirable for me, all I want is peace from the suffering of this dreadful, futile existence I never would had chosen.