Fuck why cant I just do it

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I'm so desperate. I just need to die but im so afraid of the pain. If I had N this would be easy and peaceful. But no. SN with no good antiemetics. Fuck it though, if i can muster the second glass ill pass out before i can thow too much of it up

 

[Death_of_a_Phynixx]

I can relate to your fear. I am a G owner, but I am just too afraid to take that walk outside to the pond and free myself. I am afraid I'll pay for it and end up like a vegetable which would be even worse. I feel like I am ready to leave, I just have to find some courage to free myself from this body. Eventually that courage will bond with me..

 

[FuneralCry]

Ctb is very difficult after all. Even know we want to die, there is the powerful survival instinct. The survival instinct can be determined to keep us suffering. I understand your frustrations. I know that it can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

You can't do it because you're not supposed to do it. The body is designed to stay alive at all costs and your brain is programmed to keep you from ctb.

That is the survival instinct. It is real, it is stronger than your feelings or consciousness, and it is in everyone.

I know this isn't comforting, but it's the truth. Your body and brain are designed to stop you. Getting over on your survival instinct is, quite literally, the toughest thing you will ever have to do.

Whatever happens for you, I wish you peace.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

CTB is very difficult to perform. There are people that have been alive for years despite their feelings. I been living wayyy past my date 14 years of depressive state, suicidal for 4 years possibly longer

Don't be hard on yourself. You're up against survival biological instinct, fear of death, fear of the dying process, fear of harming others it's a lot to take in all at once.

 

[Dot]

Hpe r ok @lonleycrowdedwest

Nt bn onlne snce jst aftr pst

 

[rationaltake]

Me too. Just need to do it. So understand.

 

[Dot]

Me too. Just need to do it. So understand.

Sme

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

You can't do it because you're not supposed to do it. The body is designed to stay alive at all costs and your brain is programmed to keep you from ctb.

That is the survival instinct. It is real, it is stronger than your feelings or consciousness, and it is in everyone.

I know this isn't comforting, but it's the truth. Your body and brain are designed to stop you. Getting over on your survival instinct is, quite literally, the toughest thing you will ever have to do.

Whatever happens for you, I wish you peace.

Thank you i appreciate your words.

Hpe r ok @lonleycrowdedwest

Nt bn onlne snce jst aftr pst

im okay. I'm still afraid. Mayve that means it isnt time, but on the other hand its too hard to keep going. I'm such a freak

 

[Under The Graveyard]

It was never meant to be easy. I've tried numerous times over the years. Either I failed because of survival instinct, or failed to do it out of fear.