fettyshooter
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- Aug 6, 2026
- 28
I want to die so god damn bad but every time I try to something goes wrong. they cancel or reschedule their appointment something goes wrong with the fent my body gives out on me again and i have to spend more time in an awful hospital etc etc etc im so fucking exhausted i cant take this anymore. im so fucked up now i worry death wont be the end of this. i wanted to die before needing to be rushed to the er again but of course the appointment didnt happen and they came back so i couldnt do it anymore. 
nothing helps.
i miss other opioids so bad. my tolerance is so high i can only use fent and fent doesnt help at all. it only makes me fall asleep there is no high and when i pass out all i get are awful trauma dreams. god im so miserable i want to shoot myself in the face. they fucked me up so bad i hate all of them. so lovely that people can hurt you so bad theres no hope youll ever recover and nothing will ever happen to them. theyll continue to live an ok problem-free life probably still preying on other children while you have brutal flashbacks and want to blow your head clean off.
sorry this is a lot i desperately need to clear my head twitter is not good enough. thanks twt for allowing me two whole sentences to vent my problems. sure helps a lot.
i guess im mostly posting again to say nope im not dead it didnt happen my miserable ass is still here and im using it as an excuse to vent more when all i do is vent. i was too much of a chickenshit to get on here and make another post after it happened. hi again. (i still dont have access to private chats im not ignoring anyone.)
nothing helps.i miss other opioids so bad. my tolerance is so high i can only use fent and fent doesnt help at all. it only makes me fall asleep there is no high and when i pass out all i get are awful trauma dreams. god im so miserable i want to shoot myself in the face. they fucked me up so bad i hate all of them. so lovely that people can hurt you so bad theres no hope youll ever recover and nothing will ever happen to them. theyll continue to live an ok problem-free life probably still preying on other children while you have brutal flashbacks and want to blow your head clean off.
sorry this is a lot i desperately need to clear my head twitter is not good enough. thanks twt for allowing me two whole sentences to vent my problems. sure helps a lot.
i guess im mostly posting again to say nope im not dead it didnt happen my miserable ass is still here and im using it as an excuse to vent more when all i do is vent. i was too much of a chickenshit to get on here and make another post after it happened. hi again. (i still dont have access to private chats im not ignoring anyone.)
