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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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I tried several times earlier today to fsh but my si kept getting in the way. I couldn't just take the step so it ended up like partial attempts several times but I didn't even pass out once. Now it hurts to swallow and my throat hurts a bit, I can't find the sweet spot and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. The knot is behind my neck, pre tightened, anchor knot. I'm not sure if it hurts so bad because the rope is thin and I should try a thicker one? I believe I'm around 54kg and the rope is 1/8 in". I saw another post saying something along the lines of it it is too thin of a rope it just causes excess pressure and pain. I saw a lot of videos of successful hangings and they don't even use an arbor knot or noose knot and rope they just take a scarf and tie it however, at this point I'm thinking a scarf might be better since it won't be as thin may not hurt as bad? The mark on my neck is almost faded but it hurts to touch my neck at all, move or swallow even though I put the rope high. Also idk if getting drunk would help, some people say to stay sober but how else do you get over the si? I saw the videos and others pass out almost immediately and i can't get there. I also don't know if I should try again now or wait until tomorrow or if the pain will be worse tomorrow because it would have had time to settle in. Please help
 
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sickofeverything

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Also does anyone know if bdsm rope would work for hanging? It is said to be softer material so it would probably hurt less and I know someone should be strong enough to hold weight but I don't want to try and have the knot not tighten or it come undone or fail in some other way.
 
happysunnydayy

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You need to go hard on that rope. Like dont think just jump asap and you'll pass out fast. I do think thin ropes hurt, most use scarf I think it's very comfortable you should give it a try, it kinda acts as a padding for your neck while rope digs deep.
 
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sickofeverything

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You need to go hard on that rope. Like dont think just jump asap and you'll pass out fast. I do think thin ropes hurt, most use scarf I think it's very comfortable you should give it a try, it kinda acts as a padding for your neck while rope digs deep.
Really? I saw that you should step off not jump down, maybe that's why I struggled. I thought of trying scarf because of the videos I saw but idk what knot or if it will break under my weight, currently trying to search shibari and see if that works since it's softer
 
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happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

planning ctb with fsh hit me up.
Mar 18, 2025
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Really? I saw that you should step off not jump down, maybe that's why I struggled. I thought of trying scarf because of the videos I saw but idk what knot or if it will break under my weight, currently trying to search shibari and see if that works since it's softer
I've seen those who jump rather then slowly stepping off pass out the moment they kick off the stool. Scarves are pretty strong too just like rope and you can make any knot on them
 
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sickofeverything

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I've seen those who jump rather then slowly stepping off pass out the moment they kick off the stool. Scarves are pretty strong too just like rope and you can make any knot on them
I guess I'm just scared of jumping and having it not work, something go wrong and be stuck in a worse position. I didn't think anchor knots worked on scarves I thought they don't have enough slip. I'm currently looking at 1/2 in" and 3/8 in" diamond braided polypropylene rope, I feel like 50 ft is enough and I don't need 100 but due to my last failed attempt I'm so scared I'll just have more neck pain and no success. I want to use padding but some say it gets in the way. I feel like drinking should help si but others say when they drank it failed for them and I don't think alcohol affects me like normal. Anyone have any feedback on 3/8 in vs 1/2 in rope?
 
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