For those of you who almost succeeded at hanging what was your last thought?

[alreadyfound]

I'm always afraid I'll have regrets at the very last moment and that the final seconds of my life will be pure pain. Do people really feel a sense of relief? Even though I know these are automatic reflexes, seeing hands clenching around the neck and the rope in videos of hangings scares me.

 

[Steph99]

When I almost killed myself practicing full suspension hanging with a harness to take some of the weight off, it was the weirdest thing. Was no pain and very quickly I started lapsing into unconscious without any comprehension this was happening. I somehow got back on the chair probably a second or two before it was too late and for the next 30 seconds I was so disassociated I didn't know who I was or what I'd done.Was quite shaken up afterwards but now I wish I hadn't got back on the chair as it was such a peaceful feeling. The knot was at the centre of the back of my head and with hindsight I must have had the rope positioned in the absolute sweetspot to compress my cartoids. Hard to replicate!

 

[100memoryleaks]

"why is it taking so long?"

i tried three times that night and interestingly enough, only fully lost consciousness on the last two tries, but on the first one I was just barely about to lose consciousness. i wonder what would have happened if I just held my breath instead of eventually standing up on my own accord, would I have just woken up again like the next two times? (to clarify —the next two times, I lost consciousness instantly)

** also there's the possibility that I actually passed out from drinking and having taken sedatives and I may be misremembering now. i obviously wasn't in the clearest state of mind back then.