FML

[Done182]

I have a beautiful partner, numerous friends, a creative passion and everyday I wish I wouldn't wake up. I honestly see suicide as the natural conclusion to my life. I think I'll have some joys in between but that's my inevitable conclusion. I'm the happiest person in the room, my loved ones will be shocked.If I don't kill myself, I hope to die early at say 70.

 

[galaxid]

Suicide as a natural conclusion is something I feel a lot. Things get exhausting. It's good that you have some things to be happy about, even if its just in theory if not practice.

 

[relapse]

Things are going better for me nowadays compared to years ago and I'm the most suicidal I've been my entire life. I don't think anything is going to stop me from doing it if I really want to.

 

[Done182]

Suicide as a natural conclusion is something I feel a lot. Things get exhausting. It's good that you have some things to be happy about, even if its just in theory if not practice.

Yeah I am lucky to have happy things in theory, I just want to go though, I pray every night to just die in my sleep naturally without me having to take things into my own hands, I won't kill myself anytime soon but I want to, my biggest fear is that since I want to die early the most, I'll live the longest Murphy's law and all.
The one thing that makes me happiest most is another person, I hate that, I hate being that vulnerable.

Things are going better for me nowadays compared to years ago and I'm the most suicidal I've been my entire life. I don't think anything is going to stop me from doing it if I really want to.

I understand the feeling of being the most suicidal when on paper, it's the best place you've been in Sending you hugs xx