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aldens

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Aug 17, 2026
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I tried to position the rope below my adam's apple so i didnt suffocate. I messed up and it slid all the way to the top of my neck after I kicked the chair.

My first thought was "eh whatever I'll just die suffocating". The noises I were making as I suffocated was actually so comical, I sounded like a fish.

And then it got really uncomfortable -- in a desperate attempt I to escape I projectiled by my body forward to bring down my pull up tower and landed on my bed.

I have immense heart palpitations and severe chest pain after the failure, probably due to my underlying heart issues, the cortisol spike associated with suicide, and a lack of oxygen to the brain.

I need to rest before I try again, I am so out of energy even 24 hours later.
 
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Thanks for the update. That sounds pretty miserable.

For anyone reading, if you're doing FSH, the only place the rope will land is at the top of your neck. It's also recommended to not have a way to save yourself (like a nearby piece of furniture). Benzos would probably help, and maybe something soft to cover the rope.
 
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