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Insertname1

Student
Sep 21, 2020
188
Finishing off my drinks before I hopefully can ctb, got my rope set up. Can't get the closure I want or tell anyone. Its been a long time coming. Im home alone tonight, so its the best time, havent stopped crying for most of the night, maybe ill join the other greats that have left us like Chester Bennington. I really hope it works tonight
 
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overandout

Experienced
Feb 28, 2019
234
Ah best of luck to you. Wish it wasn't such a painful time for you. Been having lots of emotions too as getting closer to my time. Really hope it's peaceful as possible and you finally can find relief and rest from this life of yours.
 
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Insertname1

Student
Sep 21, 2020
188
Ah best of luck to you. Wish it wasn't such a painful time for you. Been having lots of emotions too as getting closer to my time. Really hope it's peaceful as possible and you finally can find relief and rest from this life of yours.
Thank you. I hope it works and is quick, the closer it gets to your time the more your head is all over the place, I hope you find your peace when your time comes too
 
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overandout

Experienced
Feb 28, 2019
234
Thank you. I hope it works and is quick, the closer it gets to your time the more your head is all over the place, I hope you find your peace when your time comes too

Thank you, I see you are in UK too, do you mind sharing what rope you are using and where you got it from?
 
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Good luck on your journey love. I hope things are smooth for you. Sending love ❤️
 
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Niirvana

♥Soon♥
Sep 18, 2020
436
Love his music. "In the end, it doenst even matters"
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
6,015
Safe travels, I hope have a painless swift journey. I'm sorry to hear you won't be able to receive the closure you desire.
 
Insertname1

Insertname1

Student
Sep 21, 2020
188
Thank you, I see you are in UK too, do you mind sharing what rope you are using and where you got it from?
Got it from amazon, seems soft enough round the next but not too soft, my hoodie works as enough of a cushion.
Love his music. "In the end, it doenst even matters"
Yea I love his music too, 1 of my all time favourite bands, even have a linkin park tattoo
 

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WFJ74

Student
Aug 18, 2020
150
Have a wonderful journey and a peaceful rest, man!
 
Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,307
Good luck, farewell. You deserve the peace you crave and I hope you find it.
 
theguineapigking

theguineapigking

Useless piece of trash
Dec 5, 2019
593
I'm sorry that life has been so cruel to you, and that you weren't able to get the closure you desired.

Just know that it's okay to back out if you change your mind.

If you do attempt, I wish you the best. May you find your peace.
 
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Insertname1

Student
Sep 21, 2020
188
Need to write the note too, got a fair few things to say in it, things that are important, they probably won't change anything for anyone but its still worth a try though right
 
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theguineapigking

Useless piece of trash
Dec 5, 2019
593
Need to write the note too, got a fair few things to say in it, things that are important, they probably won't change anything for anyone but its still worth a try though right
How are you now?
 
Insertname1

Insertname1

Student
Sep 21, 2020
188
Oh my gosh. That sounds horrible. I'm so sorry. Are you still trying?
I took a break for a few minutes, gonna try again though
I just tried again, and felt myself slowly blacking out, gotta say, that's gonna be the longest few seconds of my life, gonna have a cig and a drink then give it another go,
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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Nov 7, 2019
2,321
Safe travels. Hope you find peace.
 
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Insertname1

Student
Sep 21, 2020
188
Gonna chicken out for tonight dunno why can't do it
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
You tried and have more experience with it now for next time when ready. It is good to hear back from you either way though.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
I'm sorry it didn't work out how you desired.
 
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nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
Im sorry that you couldn't get the peace you where looking for.
 
OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
At least you tried and know what to expect when your time does come. Maybe there is something you've forgotten to do and this is your opportunity?
 
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Daniel905

Member
Sep 23, 2020
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Obviously he does not want to live.
Meditation is a practice where an individual uses a technique – such as mindfulness, or focusing the mind on a particular object, thought, or activity – to train attention and awareness, and achieve a mentally clear and emotionally calm and stable state.

Can you see the irony in your name?
 

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