Finally ready to be alone/ nothing will stop me

[Busridin'26]

I'm done now and no longer too upset with the lonliness of suicide.

I've blocked and deleted and left all websites & accounts of all people that care.

Its done now. My friend called for wellness check and I talked myself out of it. Even if she calls again it doesn't matter. Nothing and no one will stop ne this time around.

I will die. J will have peace. Whoever doesn't believe ne like my father well that's not my problem or reality. I am sure this time.

Full suspension? Attempting to drown/bleedour/pass out using bath water?
Carbon monoxide via oven or smthin? (Just listing off method I remember reading about)

Doesn't matter. Doesn't scare me. I am going to execute something. I can't wait nor have don't have access or money for drugs and can't wait till end of month.. soo yeah.

I've read alot over the years I just haven't recently bc I thought I couldn't do physical but I can. Im not 100% fearless on this but I am ready and willing to hurt myself.
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I WILL end my life this long weekend. NOTHING will stop me. I won't allow myself to be stopped by anyone or my fearoe survival instincts.

It's time. No more just saying. It no more sitting in between.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you do, I hope you find the peace you seek. Just keep enough of your wits about you and cross all of the t's and dot all of the i's.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you.