Finally found a good tree to hang from with privacy.

[Exhausted546]

Took me time but this should do the trick for FSH, it's about 15 mins walk away from my place.

Screenshotted the location on Google maps and will put it in my suicide note word doc (if anyone thinks to even check my computer) it's on a trail so I'll likely be found the following day.

It's ironic that I discovered I loved walking in the woods through my search for a suitable tree to hang from. Never realized there were woods like this right beside my place until now,first time I went for walk there.

With this said, I believe this is the end for me. I'm planning to go back when it gets dark,I'm feeling at peace rn

 

[xXSufferingXx]

how would you hypothetically set that up? how would you make the anchor point?
anyway, whatever you choose in life, i wish you peace

 

[Exhausted546]

how would you hypothetically set that up? how would you make the anchor point?
anyway, whatever you choose in life, i wish you peace

I haven't tried just in case I was caught doing so, I'll do it when I go back tonight. It shouldn't be an issue to wrap the rope around the tree with an arbor knot. I'll need some kind of stool tho to put my neck around the noose. Either that or try to climb the tree just high enough for the noose to reach my neck.

Although the position could be awkward, I hope the angle works out properly to apply pressure on my carotids

 

[xXSufferingXx]

I haven't tried just in case I was caught doing so, I'll do it when I go back tonight. It shouldn't be an issue to wrap the rope around the tree with an arbor knot. I'll need some kind of stool tho to put my neck around the noose. Either that or try to climb the tree just high enough for the noose to reach my neck.

Although the position could be awkward, I hope the angle works out properly to apply pressure on my carotids

i see, thanks for explaining. it feels so weird tho for me to be chatting someone who might not be alive tomorrow, it's a weird feeling.
but i wish you peace like i said

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Exhausted546]

i see, thanks for explaining. it feels so weird tho for me to be chatting someone who might not be alive tomorrow, it's a weird feeling.
but i wish you peace like i said

I used to have lots of limitations. Either it was too far, too public, too cold, couldn't be used for FSH, etc,etc but now that I found a perfect spot ,it kinda feels surreal that I'm really about to die.

I've been thinking about it and I don't feel like I can continue living. I can definitely but without dignity, I've had enough of that. The past decade of struggle was more than enough. Without that I'd fight but I'm done.

 

[Exhausted546]

Second night in a row I procrastinate,holy shit, it's already 4:30 am , I've been like "is this really the end? Just give me another 1-2 hours to get ready. I should nap or something first"

On sunday I sent a "thanks for having been there for me" message to a friend in the morning. I forgot about it I guess she only saw it 24h later, when I woke up Monday afternoon, I had missed calls and voice messages, she was crying her eyes out. That really hit me, I won't send this sort of message anymore. Her reaction almost made me waver.

Anyway, I know I shouldn't rush things but if I don't rush things I won't do it

 

[Lemon Ice Cube]

Second night in a row I procrastinate,holy shit

Hiya. No matter which way things go, I wish you well. Who knows, maybe having a place where you know you can end things just might give you the comfort to live. I think it's valid to procrastinate tho, I feel like I've been procrastinating on death for years now

 

[Exhausted546]

Hiya. No matter which way things go, I wish you well. Who knows, maybe having a place where you know you can end things just might give you the comfort to live. I think it's valid to procrastinate tho, I feel like I've been procrastinating on death for years now

Issue is I'll go homeless soon,my situation is getting worse by the day and my will to fight isn't there,I can't continue to procrastinate.

It's either I do this or I somehow get the will to fight.
Either way, having for a spot makes it so real. I can just go there now and die within the next hour. I appreciate the well wishes in any case, have you been procrastinating for the same reason?

 

[Lemon Ice Cube]

Issue is I'll go homeless soon,my situation is getting worse by the day and my will to fight isn't there,I can't continue to procrastinate.

It's either I do this or I somehow get the will to fight.
Either way, having for a spot makes it so real. I can just go there now and die within the next hour. I appreciate the well wishes in any case, have you been procrastinating for the same reason?

I have a few spots that I'm scouting, so I know where/how I'll go about it. But I have a bucket list of sorts I want to get through first. All of which should be easily accomplished within this year.

I don't even know if I want to complete my bucket list, I kinda know I would want to live if the circumstances were different and that's why I'm stalling. Maybe I could change them. I don't feel like I'm capable of it though, which is why I procrastinate

I'm stuck in a state of despising my current situation but knowing there's things out there that might be worth living for, they're just all out of reach

 

[Exhausted546]

I have a few spots that I'm scouting, so I know where/how I'll go about it. But I have a bucket list of sorts I want to get through first. All of which should be easily accomplished within this year.

I don't even know if I want to complete my bucket list, I kinda know I would want to live if the circumstances were different and that's why I'm stalling. Maybe I could change them. I don't feel like I'm capable of it though, which is why I procrastinate

I get you. I'd definitely want to live in different circumstances too. I wish you well whatever you end up deciding

 

[fkyou]

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Do you think partial hanging works?

 

[Exhausted546]

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Do you think partial hanging works?

It might but It seems unreliable to me. I tried multiple times (although I think I did the noose wrong,that may have been why I'm still alive).

Full suspension hanging is definite death imo as long as you're uninterrupted for long enough and do it right.