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kotonearisato

kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
119
Finally I found SN and I just placed my order. I feel so relieved, honestly. I haven't finished all my preparations yet, but just knowing I finally have a viable method for peace is helping a lot. Things continue to go wrong, and I know that these things won't ever get better. I can't change my genetics, I can't be in any less pain unless there's a medical miracle. And I can't fix my trauma, either. But I can finally be free of it all, just like I've wished since I was in elementary school. I've debated the idea of more... direct CTB methods, but I don't want to do that to my husband. At least this way, he can know I was at peace and not hurting or scared.

Anyways thanks. I really needed to tell someone but I can't really go talking about it to my friends and family. I hope you all find peace soon, too.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand why you'd feel relief, I wish you the best.
 
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maynoname

maynoname

Student
Aug 13, 2024
162
I understand your relief. We are here to hear you.
 
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michaellionel

michaellionel

Member
Sep 3, 2024
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wish you all the best
 
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BlackCatCrossing

BlackCatCrossing

Member
Aug 27, 2024
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My first order of SN got taken at customs, so I found a US company that will sell to me. 98% and 200 mg.
Hi, hope you're still with us. 💗 Just curious if your SN taken at customs - was it DMC SN from Ukraine?
 
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Davey40210

Davey40210

Even the stars make room for new stars
Sep 3, 2024
343
Also curious, please let us know OP
 
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purplesky9

Experienced
Sep 21, 2024
256
Finally I found SN and I just placed my order. I feel so relieved, honestly. I haven't finished all my preparations yet, but just knowing I finally have a viable method for peace is helping a lot. Things continue to go wrong, and I know that these things won't ever get better. I can't change my genetics, I can't be in any less pain unless there's a medical miracle. And I can't fix my trauma, either. But I can finally be free of it all, just like I've wished since I was in elementary school. I've debated the idea of more... direct CTB methods, but I don't want to do that to my husband. At least this way, he can know I was at peace and not hurting or scared.

Anyways thanks. I really needed to tell someone but I can't really go talking about it to my friends and family. I hope you all find peace soon, too.
Can you give any hints about your source?
 
kotonearisato

kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
119
Can you give any hints about your source?
I found it from the hints on SS, took me maybe 10 minutes. I'll say it's on the clearnet, and google won't pull it up if that helps :)
 
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