Final Days

[LostAllHope88]

My plan was initially to pass with SN on Friday, but I'm still trying to muster up the courage needed to just get on with it. I can't wait much longer than that though because my rent is not going to be paid on the 1st and I will end up on the streets at some point soon after if I don't hurry it up. I'm trying to pass reasonably comfortably in my own bed with SN instead of starvation or assault due to being homeless in the USA. Definitely less preferable ways to go IMO.

That being said, I'm thinking if not Friday then Monday or Tuesday will be my CTB date. I'm painfully alone, though, and I was wondering if some of you might be willing to keep me company on here? I could try to report on my experience with SN as well to add another testimonial to the resource bank. I'm admittedly scared, but I'd feel a lot better if I knew I could talk with some of you before leaving forever.

 

[sharky]

I'd love if you report on your journey with sn. I hope you find peace. Homelessness is really one of the worst things on this planet and I completely understand your wish to ctb. Keep us updated. Thank you and good luck, pal.

 

[Al_stargate]

Sorry about your problems. There might be some good resources for homeless in your city worth considering. It sucks you have to hurry it up and not do it in a peaceful, more collected manner. If you make a goodbye thread, people usually check those and will reply. Also chat is where you can find good company during final hours. Wish you well!

 

[miserableforever]

My plan was initially to pass with SN on Friday, but I'm still trying to muster up the courage needed to just get on with it. I can't wait much longer than that though because my rent is not going to be paid on the 1st and I will end up on the streets at some point soon after if I don't hurry it up. I'm trying to pass reasonably comfortably in my own bed with SN instead of starvation or assault due to being homeless in the USA. Definitely less preferable ways to go IMO.

That being said, I'm thinking if not Friday then Monday or Tuesday will be my CTB date. I'm painfully alone, though, and I was wondering if some of you might be willing to keep me company on here? I could try to report on my experience with SN as well to add another testimonial to the resource bank. I'm admittedly scared, but I'd feel a lot better if I knew I could talk with some of you before leaving forever.

Depending on your location you can try calling 211. If homelessness is your main concern for CTB, you could see how that plays out.

 

[LostAllHope88]

Sorry about your problems. There might be some good resources for homeless in your city worth considering. It sucks you have to hurry it up and not do it in a peaceful, more collected manner. If you make a goodbye thread, people usually check those and will reply. Also chat is where you can find good company during final hours. Wish you well!

Depending on your location you can try calling 211. If homelessness is your main concern for CTB, you could see how that plays out.

As of 2021 my city ranks as the poorest in the US so I'm probably SOL for resources. My state is so incompetent that they actually revoked my state health insurance this month because they claim I'm working a job and not reporting my income. The place they claim I'm working I haven't been employed with since 2017. I haven't had a job since October. I didn't bother fighting it because it won't matter once I'm gone anyhow.

I've had plenty of time to consider my options and truth is I don't want to be homeless and alive. I just don't. I have no partner, no children, no pets. I have nothing tying me here so this is the absolute best time for me to CTB. SI is a bitch though.
Update: I will CTB with SN tomorrow after all. Started dosing meto. Finally leaving this disgusting world.

 

[ineedtoctb]

My plan was initially to pass with SN on Friday, but I'm still trying to muster up the courage needed to just get on with it. I can't wait much longer than that though because my rent is not going to be paid on the 1st and I will end up on the streets at some point soon after if I don't hurry it up. I'm trying to pass reasonably comfortably in my own bed with SN instead of starvation or assault due to being homeless in the USA. Definitely less preferable ways to go IMO.

That being said, I'm thinking if not Friday then Monday or Tuesday will be my CTB date. I'm painfully alone, though, and I was wondering if some of you might be willing to keep me company on here? I could try to report on my experience with SN as well to add another testimonial to the resource bank. I'm admittedly scared, but I'd feel a lot better if I knew I could talk with some of you before leaving forever.

I completely understand where you're coming bc I'm in the same boat as you. Will be here to talk if you need to vent.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I can imagine that it must be so awful and unbearable being in that situation. This life really is so cruel and to me it is horrifying how much some people suffer. I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens.

 

[Niirvana]

I wish you the best and we will be here for whatever you need