Rainork
What a load of baloney
- Mar 17, 2023
- 115
Today's hopefully my final Friday- there's a part of me that wants to go out but I just don't care anymore so gonna have a few drinks at home.
I've completed most of my goodbyes (one more tomorrow, and one friends who's unfortunately ill but I did get to see him last week) I just have one more tomorrow.
There's a part of me that wants to do something 'more' over this weekend as I almost feel like I should, but I really am just ready to ctb now and waiting for the weekend to finish so I can carry out my plans.
As the date's been getting closer; I've been finding it harder and harder to not share with those close to me, like a burden that's growing heavier with each passing hour.
I think that natural lightness that's been surrounding me this last couple of weeks has made it a lot easier for me to hide the truth and a lot more believable for those close to me. I have almost felt bad to see their relief as they relax seeing me feel better but it is nice to know they'll have this version of me to remember once I'm gone.
I've completed most of my goodbyes (one more tomorrow, and one friends who's unfortunately ill but I did get to see him last week) I just have one more tomorrow.
There's a part of me that wants to do something 'more' over this weekend as I almost feel like I should, but I really am just ready to ctb now and waiting for the weekend to finish so I can carry out my plans.
As the date's been getting closer; I've been finding it harder and harder to not share with those close to me, like a burden that's growing heavier with each passing hour.
I think that natural lightness that's been surrounding me this last couple of weeks has made it a lot easier for me to hide the truth and a lot more believable for those close to me. I have almost felt bad to see their relief as they relax seeing me feel better but it is nice to know they'll have this version of me to remember once I'm gone.
