
Soapie
I hope we all can heal from this
- Mar 26, 2021
- 85
I'm so scared of the future. I can't take this right now. I'm acting so stoic he thinks I'm okay. I'm fucked. Holy fucking shit what the fuck do I do now???? He did it so easily. I spent so much effort and he just up and left and I just... I don't understand and I'm frantic and I got way too high and I'm so fucking fucked. I can't kill myself yet but god I want to so bad. I'm technically homeless right now but I have people looking after me who will know if I do something. At this point I'm just looking for somewhere to move into alone so no one is suspicious. I just need get people to stop checking up on me like this. The second I'm alone I'm doing it. Welcoming back SS into my life I guess, woohoo 
