Feeling So Alone

[PotSmokingSloth]

I just have no one I can talk to and be completely open with. It sucks not being able to talk about your decisions and thoughts about life and death. I need to wait a few years until I can go, which really sucks because I'm just alone and miserable and it's like having a prison sentence of boredom, loneliness, depression, and anxiety that goes on for years before there's any hope of freedom. I just hate this so much right now.

 

[downndone2]

I'm so sorry and understand thus so well

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I know where you're coming from. I, too, have absolutely no one to talk to about anything actually. I've been waiting quite a while myself, about 23 or 24 years. I toughed it out and stayed around for my parents, who are now both deceased. Nothing has changed for me in that time. Life hasn't gotten better. It's gotten worse actually. It seems like that's the only way it can go. It's hard hanging on day by day. I still have a few more things to tidy up, maybe a year, hopefully no longer. I figure if I made it better than the last 2 decades, I can still muster up enough to make it another 12 months. All of my focus that I have left is being applied to doing what I need to do to get where I need to be. That is what keeps me going right now. Do what you need to do, too. I'm sure we'll both get where we need to be, wherever that is.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and suicide is not so stigmatised and we can talk openly about wanting to die. I'm sorry that you are suffering and I know that it can be unbearable living a life you hate. It must be so awful feeling like you have to wait, I feel like I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult and every day it hurts me just being alive. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[MsMaudlin]

I understand you totally. It's so frustrating not talking about the things you want to.
That's why we are here, hopefully talking to us helps a bit.

❤