Feeling like a ghost with people

[Rad Aiko]

I'm sure this happens to a lot of people...
I feel this like a strange thing, as if life shadowban me from people memories, pictures, conversations (even group chats while talking of the same subject!), this is so frustrating and depressing!

This strange thing used to bother me a lot, this make me sad actually... And as a people pleaser even more... I hate my traumas... I hate my depression.

I never had an stable group of friends, I was used to that, but this past years I got attached to a group of friends who gain my friendship... Things happened, my depression and my toxic ex were a reason to take distance from this friends, also new people started to join the group. After multiple rejections from my side and the new people, they started to forget me...

I tried to explain how bad I was feeling, but the friendship is already broken for my, it was and it is a hard heartbreak for me...

 

[[HNO]]

just look ppl in the eye while talk and smile and dont bring sad or obscure themes in conversation if theres no topics for conversation start tp talk about recent marvel film released or how you got up for school and got stuck in jam
always works to me

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you suffer like this. It must be painful what you are going through, it really is such a cruel existence. I wish you the best.

 

[Jimblue]

I am sorry to hear that. I never should a group of friends too. And I don't think I can deal with a group of people.

I passed the age that I desperate want to friends.

I can not deal people at movement.

 

[FrozenMango]

I hear you. I'm a ghost and people are ghosts too. I have a blank face. I don't smile. I don't care about the world. Some people around me think I'm emotional and I don't know why. I'm definitely not a 2-faced person. Go figure

 

[JustBill104]

I know how your feeling, I've never been to have more then one or two friendships at a time, and they always end the same, as long as I keep going out of my way to help them better their lives it was all good, but then I ask for a ride, and no one has the time this month. so I have always stand to myself and have issues trusting anyone, even my family only care about things I can do for them, then things happened 11 years ago and I ended up having surgery that went wrong, but everyone says I should be in great shape, and since I can no longer do all the things they want me to do for them, they no longer talk to me I was dealing with it the best I could, but a few weeks ago I had a friend that for some reason felt they would understand, so I sat down and spilled my guts, now they no longer talk either, Just had enough, can't understand why I can't get help, My Anxiety is out of control and the depression has me in a bad place.

 

[Zegers]

I feel this like a strange thing, as if life shadowban me

I remember once in my HS class some girls made a opinion list of the most handsome guy to the least, I didn't appear, from thenn until now i felt that "shadowban"