Feeling horrible and don't want to be here

[Why Not???]

I am feeling horrible right now! I'm feeling extremely suicidal and no one to talk to. I am imagining slashing my wrists and get it over with. I am scared though. What if I survive? That's my worst fear.

I yelled at my coworker the other day for no reason. I felt so angry at myself. I got home, and cried all evening to the point of throwing up. I took the next day off. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just be normal? I don't want to hear, see, and feel anything! I just want peace and silence! Why me?????

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful. I'm sorry you are going through this. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I also want peace and to be free from this horrible life. I wish you the best.

 

[savagepeonies]

I feel this. I can't even bring myself to get or keep a job right now. I've been staying with my mother. I've never felt this incapable of taking care of myself or doing normal life things, like having a job or maintaining relationships with people. Waking up I'm so sad and angry, and the worst part is I don't really want it to get better, I just want it be over. Something has to change soon. I hope for peace for both of us.

 

[Why Not???]

Weirdly enough, I also don't want it to get better. Let's both hope together!