Venting Feeling guilty but I have no other choice

[sapphoslastpoem]

My life is a cesspool of bs. It has been since I was a kid and things progressively get worse the longer I'm here. I know I have to ctb, it's the only foreseeable end for me but I feel so guilty knowing I'll be leaving my boyfriend behind to suffer. He's already had to deal with this from friends and im going to be doing the same thing to him too. Why couldn't I have just died as a baby?

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be painful being in that situation. It is sad how so much suffering exists in this world and I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I know that it is awful when things just get worse and I understand the feeling of being desperate to leave. I hope that you find relief from your pain.

 

[honir]

The guilt part within you must probably mean something. Have you opened up to him?