feeling better, interaction with other hazy people helped

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I tried to light a coleman lantern 2 nights ago but burned thru many sets of mantles. i gave myself some alcohol to make bad thoughts cease and slept 24 hours.

Felling better seeing that there's other troubled suicidal ppl like me. Being nice to me (stranger) withput human face-2-face interaction helped me.

I don't feel as alone.

R

 

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It can help knowing that others also carry burdens. A chance encounter with a random act of kindness also goes a long way towards helping expand a perspective.

 

[Deleted member 32964]

It can help knowing that others also carry burdens. A chance encounter with a random act of kindness also goes a long way towards helping expand a perspective.

it does help. I am in the grossest fog of my f*ing life. it seems I can find it to the liquor store, drink real slowly and listen to my head chant insults at me. I feel hypnotized and like someone wants me LOCKED IN A ROOM. it's hellish. I've never drank like this, sat here all day long wasting time like this (well, I have, but not for WEEKS and WEEKS on end). i've never been so completely OUT OF CONTROl and out of it.

It's excruciating. I feel a prisoner in my own home of southern anti-woman honor culture. I'd like to check out. It's horrible.

Thanks for your reply. Take care and I do hope that your suicidal ideations lesson and that you get back up onto your feet, find self-sufficiency or whatever else it is that you are looking for and a quality in life that makes your livable.

Robin