Feeling alone

[Rmr]

Since I made the decision and started moves to get N, I feel so desperately alone in all of this. Not that in the times before I havent felt that way, but now a connection and acceptance feels crucial. Don't want to die alone, even though I know that physically i will be alone in my apartment when I do, but I feel an immense need to share this decision with someone that can accept it. How do you deal with such feelings if you have them?

 

[FuneralCry]

I do wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and we could be open about our plans to ctb. I'm sorry that you feel this way. I know that loneliness can be devastating and painful for many people. I would always see it as best to keep thoughts of suicide to myself personally, as others would never be able to understand. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[Rmr]

I do wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and we could be open about our plans to ctb. I'm sorry that you feel this way. I know that loneliness can be devastating and painful for many people. I would always see it as best to keep thoughts of suicide to myself personally, as others would never be able to understand. I wish you relief from suffering.

Thank you <3

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Since I made the decision and started moves to get N, I feel so desperately alone in all of this.

I certainly get the "feeling desperately alone" part - I don't know how many of us would be here if we weren't feeling desperately alone - but it seems to have kicked up a notch for you now that a decision has been made. That sounds to me like the old survival instinct kicking in, and I think that means your subconscious knows you're serious.

I hope you feel connected, accepted, heard, seen, and valued here. You are - whatever you decide to do. We all come from different places, bringing different pain, yet all wind up in the same place, feeling alone and trapped. We get it.