Venting Feel like punching my screen RN

[cupcakesandmilk]

Same same same day every day, hate the nature of this life, wake up, brush your teeth, read about the horrors of the world, study, study, and study, or work, work, and work when you get older, put in the bare minimum effort, feel guilty, come back, be a disappointment, sleep, repeat.

Got yet another college entrance exam tomorrow, but I didn't study shit, and I take full accountability for that, but why should I even study when I've already failed despite trying? Why should I bother when I'm gonna die anyway? God, I'm so fucking miserable, I'll force myself to pull an all-nighter just because.

I didn't bother thinking ten times before writing every sentence. Fuck me and fuck this country.

Ignore this post just as my peers ignore me...

 

[$crim]

i wish you luck on your upcoming exam, and im very sorry that youre feeling so miserable
yknow you always have us here if you need us ♥

 

[Jiyuurakka]

I hate writing entrance exams as well, it's all so in vain. The competition is way too high, and when I see my peers mindlessly studying, I feel like me and them live in two completely different worlds. Millions competing for limited seats, and within those seats, students getting in through nepotism, bribery, and money. The amount of time I need to sink in to study a subject to get a job I'm not interested in the first place only to appease people whose self interests are as shallow as getting the highest paying job to earn the most money, it all sounds like a joke. The answer is simple when I pick up the question bank or whatever preparatory book, "I'd rather not."

All the best in your exams, atleast writing it will offer a brief respite from all the awful stress.