Feel awful.

[Busridin'26]

I feel like dirt. Low.

Borderline suicidal yeah actually feeling suicidal.

Everytime I try to reach the best outcome for tge day someone gets in the way. Never lived on my own so its always been like that.

I wanna lay a corpse for clean up. I am FED UP.

I have a headache yet I ate and drank water today.
Thats what hapoens when nearlt EVERY FUCKING DAY My body is being send to from -20 to 100. Then back down to -50 and settling somewhere there.

I feel fucking awful. What even if self soothing. What even is peace. I just fall into a very medium meh but that's me. Everyday i fight to more than meh. I fight to not be worse than meh. I always end up at meh.

I don't have anyone to talk to. Its after 5pm so workers are at home. Staff tbat is working rn triggers me hella so I dont speak to her much and she's cone to completely disregard my presence. Either way I don't feel comfortable speaking to her.

I feel so alone and just wanting to self harm or sleep.

I wish i could sleep. I hope I can sleep.

 

[WornOutLife]

Everytime I try to reach the best outcome for tge day someone gets in the way.

I can relate. Either someone or something screw my day up! (usually)