Fear

[Hope:-)]

Is anyone else who's ctb soon wracked with fear? I really want to do it- I have no doubt about choosing death, but I have suddenly become so fearful. How does one deal with the fear? How do you deal with it?

 

[Jrmull1993]

@Hope:-) What specifically are you fearful of?

 

[Hope:-)]

Physical pain. I'm not scared of death at all.

 

[Jrmull1993]

@Hope:-) I understand this fear. The only way to really approach this fear is to have a very well thought out exit plan that accounts for potential pitfalls.

Once your confident in your plan, just remember that if there is pain it is temporary and the reward at the end is eternal peace.

 

[LonelyandAlone]

When I feel that it's my time to go (and it will be soon) I will get very drunk, and I mean really drunk. This will help me to deal with fear and any physical pain that I might have. Alcohol always gives me a lot of courage. It can also numb physical pain pretty well. I have read some statistics and in my country most people who kill themselves are drunk. Alcohol also makes people more impulsive. I guess some of them wouldn't do it if they weren't drunk.

 

[Rational man]

Physical pain. I'm not scared of death at all.
Physical pain. I'm not scared of death at all.

Do you have a physical illness,?. My way.of dealing with pain is to ACCEPT that pain, like pleasure is temporary. This brings me some comfort in knowing that it isnt forevermore. It.will end. I am terminally ill and pain med is ineffective. I feel like im trapped with a locomotive heading toward me. But i do have the possibility of ctb or travelling to Dignitas. No animal would be allowed to suffer like so many millions of people around the world. I hope you find answers.

 

[Darkover]

i don't fear death its how you go from living to being dead that i am afraid of if i had N i'd sleep alot better at night SN is scary to me because its not the most peaceful method and things can go wrong with it, I'd be happy to have N knowing i can leave at any time of my choosing

 

[VKVK]

i don't fear death its how you go from living to being dead that i am afraid of if i had N i'd sleep alot better at night SN is scary to me because its not the most peaceful method and things can go wrong with it, I'd be happy to have N knowing i can leave at any time of my choosing

I have SN with all the possible recommended 'add-on' drugs you could imagine. I also plan on taking some benzos beforehand so I feel drunk-ish. It might not be perfect but I doubt I'll feel much. I'm more afraid of vomiting than anything else because I hate vomiting, but even then I think I'm overthinking it.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, any physical pain experienced during the dying process would be preferable to potentially decades of pain that I would have to experience if I stayed alive. I believe that many people get over their fears when they get desperate and all that they want is to escape. They just know that it's time to leave and they have this feeling of certainty and have no more doubts. I think that someone cannot force themselves to be ready to leave. Suicide certainly is difficult as after all we have to deal with the SI. None of us should have to suffer as we leave this world, we have already been through enough in life. Dying should always be peaceful.

 

[Hope:-)]

I have a degenerative eye condtiion that gives me constant pain and discomfort. What stands out for me so far is that I should accept the pain of ctb and remember that the pain is only temporary. Any more feedback much appreciated.

Btw I can't get drunk as I am doing the sn method. Otherwise I totally would!

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Is anyone else who's ctb soon wracked with fear? I really want to do it- I have no doubt about choosing death, but I have suddenly become so fearful. How does one deal with the fear? How do you deal with it?

What method are you considering?
I also am fearful. I am choosing partial hanging and my fear is the feeling of suffocating. I don't want to be alone and scared and gasping for air

 

[Hope:-)]

The fear is getting a little better.I hope it keeps getting better.Going next month.x

 

[SiroccoSousse]

Is anyone else who's ctb soon wracked with fear? I really want to do it- I have no doubt about choosing death, but I have suddenly become so fearful. How does one deal with the fear? How do you deal with it?

I know that feeling. I can think about dying all day no problem, but as soon as I make a conscious plan to go and do it my heart races and I get a surge of adrenaline. The fear makes it really hard to think clearly about my reasons for CTBing, so I've been trying to put myself in that emotional state as much as I can in the hopes that I grow accustomed to it and can function better when it happens. But I'm sitting here writing this after all so I'm not quite there yet :P