Fear

[nowayout123]

I'm ready to go but I'm also a bit scared. I don't have my method yet mainly because I'm afraid of death. I wish I wasn't. I know I don't want to be here anymore.

 

[dudeidk]

I am in the same boat. I have my method it's just I don't follow through.

 

[nowayout123]

I am in the same boat. I have my method it's just I don't follow through

What scares you most?

 

[dudeidk]

What scares you most?

The process of dying. I am the most scared of losing conscious even though that is what I desire. In partial hanging I always stand up right before the moment... sigh.

 

[nowayout123]

The process of dying. I am the most scared of losing consious even though that is what I desire. In partial hanging I always stand up right before the moment... sigh.

Yeah that's what scares me too. I don't have the means to try hanging but I've been obsessively reading about SN and it seems like a painful way to go. Sigh.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to deal with all these fears, in my case I am very tired of living but I am stuck in this world because of the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit and the fear of failure. I know it can be so depressing when you do not want to exist but you feel as though you cannot leave this world. More than anything I wish I could just peacefully pass away. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[nowayout123]

She's gone now and it really sucks because she was my stepdaughter and her mother doesn't have closure at all. She also suffers from depression and bi polar disorder so I'm worried that she might also give up I personally don't understand why she did this but I am going through her phone and retracing her steps to find a reason why I just don't her death to be in vein. She hung herself in the closet with a dog leash her mother cam home to see this and all she wanted to do was give her daughter a hug seeing your only child lifeless is the hardest thing in the world to process please take the time to explain to your parents or loved ones why you feel what your feeling because you have no idea how much you are really loved and how much you will truly be missed if one person loves you or shows some interest please let them into your heart and hold onto that love and try your hardest to be the best you can be think about you have an average of 60 to 90 years on this earth if your lucky why not just live it out then you have eternity to die whoever you are you are loved and anyone who sees this please consider everything I said ❤

 

[notforlong12]

Feeling in the exact same place and haven't got my method sorted yet.

 

[scaredycat84]

I'm ready to go but I'm also a bit scared. I don't have my method yet mainly because I'm afraid of death. I wish I wasn't. I know I don't want to be here anymore.

I think everyone is at least a lil bit afraid cause it's the unknown and people fear the unknown.
Maybe if you're still a lil fearful then it's not time yet

 

[Shu]

@Dot

I think everyone is at least a lil bit afraid cause it's the unknown and people fear the unknown.
Maybe if you're still a lil fearful then it's not time yet

She's gone. The message above was her step mom confirming it.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

She's gone now and it really sucks because she was my stepdaughter and her mother doesn't have closure at all. She also suffers from depression and bi polar disorder so I'm worried that she might also give up I personally don't understand why she did this but I am going through her phone and retracing her steps to find a reason why I just don't her death to be in vein. She hung herself in the closet with a dog leash her mother cam home to see this and all she wanted to do was give her daughter a hug seeing your only child lifeless is the hardest thing in the world to process please take the time to explain to your parents or loved ones why you feel what your feeling because you have no idea how much you are really loved and how much you will truly be missed if one person loves you or shows some interest please let them into your heart and hold onto that love and try your hardest to be the best you can be think about you have an average of 60 to 90 years on this earth if your lucky why not just live it out then you have eternity to die whoever you are you are loved and anyone who sees this please consider everything I said ❤

Heartbreaking

Severe mental illness is so hard to deal with, it can be soul crushing torture.
I am sorry for your loss.
My condolences.