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Lextyle

Lextyle

What is this - Life?
Apr 6, 2026
231
Does anyone here FEAR things getting better? Like feeling that it will bait you to stay for longer only to then crush you even stronger and it isn't worth it or something?
 
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sickofeverything

Experienced
Apr 17, 2026
295
Yeah I have the fear that if I wait one more day it would turn around and get better but every time I push it off it only gets worse
 
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idfwlnh

idfwlnh

Mousse - the final "peace" in life
Apr 10, 2026
121
Yeah, and I thought I could just keep myself from those hope, I hate it when life goes on
 
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PainThreshold

PainThreshold

Shrug off the pain. They'll have to hurt you more.
Feb 3, 2026
34
Oh yes, definitely! Once the ultimate happiness disappears, what follow is the most gruesome experience you'll ever get.
 
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kouna

kouna

Soon CTB by fsh
Dec 14, 2025
104
Worse than things getting better, I worry about things staying in limbo, neither getting better or worse.
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
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Kanau_Nano

Kanau_Nano

Student
Apr 12, 2026
138
I always see a little hope and happiness Things will get better at times, but then I get crushed. It keeps happening over and over. I don't want to be tricked anymore. It's like torture
 
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thelostautistic

Arcanist
Jul 31, 2025
459
I do. I took myself off my last medication because I was starting to feel better. I'm not used to feeling good and it scared me.
 
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morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
44
Yes. I actually resolved some stuff in my life as of recently, but most of my problems stay absolutely impossible to solve, and for some of them I don't want to cope with them, for some of them I can't cope with them. I worry that temporarily getting some progress deludes me to delay cbting even further. (I don't even have a date set as of yet, neither a method chosen.)
 
bpdscared9

bpdscared9

scared kitty
Apr 21, 2026
116
It happens to me very often. I think it's a very common feeling when we get used to the bad things happening all the time after something big came before. At least in my opinion, I've always saw that as a sign of my recovery journey and I also saw that as a relapse most of the times. It really depends on your pov, OP!
 
wtg

wtg

Retarded mofo
Apr 2, 2023
99
I purposely tried to self sabotage and it still fails me
 
RadiantNumber

RadiantNumber

Specialist
Mar 2, 2024
386
Yes, broken promise of better life, and then laughing in yours face, did you thought we give it to you?
 
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Escargot

Member
Jun 28, 2024
10
Its a never ending of cycle of seeing, to take a turn of phrase, a light at the end of the tunnel, only for the tunnel to collapse on you again.
 
Wojaczek

Wojaczek

Experienced
Oct 24, 2021
220
yes but i know that the feeling is less than fleeting to the point where it may as well not have happened
 

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