Venting fear of death and survival instnict

[somewhatdeadly]

As the date I chose gets closer, anxiety is taking over. I'm genuinely scared like the way of anxiety someone feels before getting an injection. I know I should do it, but I have no idea what will happen, or whether if i'll be send to hell for whatever reason. I'm trying not to think about it, but I can't help it. I'm also afraid i might chicken out in the last second or freak out after ingesting SN.

 

[itsgone2]

I'm really sick of it, always chickening out of things. I really wanted to go buy a gun today, there was nothing holding me up from it and I still wasn't able to do it. Now everything's just delayed and I have no idea what will happen. I'm sick of it.. Yes I have anxiety today too. My stomach hurts. I should've taken something and just gotten it over with. I hate this.

 

[somewhatdeadly]

I'm really sick of it, always chickening out of things. I really wanted to go buy a gun today, there was nothing holding me up from it and I still wasn't able to do it. Now everything's just delayed and I have no idea what will happen. I'm sick of it.. Yes I have anxiety today too. My stomach hurts. I should've taken something and just gotten it over with. I hate this.

i hear you man. takes up a lot of effort to get there. wish this didn't had to happen at all.

 

[madameviolette]

I try to think about it as non-existence just like before we were born.

Our monkey brain can't make logic of non-existence

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i have the same problem, i feel okay leading up to the day but on the day of i'm so full of anxiety that i struggled to do anything. i didnt realize i had this fear of dying until that.

 

[kitkat9234]

I feel the same