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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
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I really fell in love with Hold On Till May by Pierce the Veil. May was the month I went with my best friend to a live rock show, and before that, we kept saying to each other "Hold on till May!" It was truly the best day ever, ingrained into my memory 🩵

But when I dont feel any hope and don't want to feel hopeful, and just want to wallow in my own sadness and fantasise about ctb, I loop My Meds Aren't Working. Truly recommend.

If anyone wants to talk to me, what are your favourite ctb related songs?
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
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I will definitely check these out (:

My favorite ctb song is I'm So Tired by Fugazi!!
 
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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
95
I will definitely check these out (:

My favorite ctb song is I'm So Tired by Fugazi!!
Just gave it a listen! It reminds me of the Carpenters; a warm but unbearably lonely feeling. Thank you for sharing!
 
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Lost_Dawns

Lost_Dawns

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Jul 17, 2026
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circus hop and top 10 things to do before you die by yonkagor
the second one is better with the uncensored version.
 
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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
95
circus hop and top 10 things to do before you die by yonkagor
the second one is better with the uncensored version.
Thank you for sharing! Gonna give these a listen when I get home!
 
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Agnes Tachyon

Agnes Tachyon

dont pm me. i have agoraphobia thx.
Jun 10, 2026
38
rip 2 my youth - the neighbourhood and sudno - molchat doma.

(let down and no surprises by radiohead too maybe?)​
 
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joyeux

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Aug 2, 2026
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the cover of My R by Lollia is a personal favorite. it's vocaloid though, so might not be what you're looking for lol.
 
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I Me & Myself

I Me & Myself

It is what it is
Sep 9, 2025
113
Ghost in a ditch always hits hard for me because it really captures a feeling I often have. (Though it can be interpreted in a vast variety of ways)

I tend to romantasize suicide and daydream about it, only to realise I can't commit or one reason or another. It feels like I killed someone else instead, wishing I could take their place.

My favorite line is probably "I almost missed my death, it's so good. Now he's decked in flowers for me."
 
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uuser1412

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Feb 28, 2026
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I really fell in love with Hold On Till May by Pierce the Veil. May was the month I went with my best friend to a live rock show, and before that, we kept saying to each other "Hold on till May!" It was truly the best day ever, ingrained into my memory 🩵

But when I dont feel any hope and don't want to feel hopeful, and just want to wallow in my own sadness and fantasise about ctb, I loop My Meds Aren't Working. Truly recommend.

If anyone wants to talk to me, what are your favourite ctb related songs?
katy song comes to mind for me, not sure if ctb related
 
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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
95
rip 2 my youth - the neighbourhood and sudno - molchat doma.

(let down and no surprises by radiohead too maybe?)​
Ive never heard of the first ones you mentioned! I'll give them a shot. As for Radiohead, I love those songs too! All I Need really hits me hard tho ♡
the cover of My R by Lollia is a personal favorite. it's vocaloid though, so might not be what you're looking for lol.
NOOO I LOVED THAT SONG!! I forgot about it! I used to blast it constantly when I was 12 or 13 and miserable. I'm a huge vocaloid fan since 2018, btw! 👀❤️
Ghost in a ditch always hits hard for me because it really captures a feeling I often have. (Though it can be interpreted in a vast variety of ways)

I tend to romantasize suicide and daydream about it, only to realise I can't commit or one reason or another. It feels like I killed someone else instead, wishing I could take their place.

My favorite line is probably "I almost missed my death, it's so good. Now he's decked in flowers for me."
Thank you for sharing! I listened briefly as I'm on the way to class haha, but the guitar sounds good! And your words ring true, I fantasise about ctb too ❤️
 
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