Fantasize about holding N in my hand too much

[jimmy7754]

All the thoughts.. rage, anger, relief, regrets and pain.. etc..

I do this a lot. Where will I go? I've come to the conclusion at least I won't grow old and miserable.. I won't die and turn into an old man. That at least is comforting.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish that I had N as well, to me it would be a relief knowing that I could peacefully exit this world at a time of my own choosing. I am so tired of living and everyday is painful and depressing. I'm sorry you are suffering. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Sherri]

Wish I had it too. But since 1st July everything that comes from outside the EU is highly checked. And I dunno anyone who sells it also :(

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Yeh sometimes I imagine it's on the desk or bed table