Failed

[Preparingforpeace]

Tried partial hanging. Worked until the ligature I was using broke. Had a seizure.

Now I hurt.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible. I'm sorry that you went through this. Dying really should be easier. It's so unfair how it is this hard to leave all the pain behind. A peaceful exit from this life should be a human right. I hope that in whatever you do, you find relief from your suffering. Best wishes.

 

[magikalangelmimi]

incredibly sorry to hear, are you doing better after the seizure? hoping for a peaceful way out for you when the time comes
sending hugs from afar

 

[Preparingforpeace]

Yeah I'm full of adrenaline and kind of pissed off right now lol.

Gonna try sn next I guess

 

[Dizzylady80]

That's really rough bb, I'm so sorry ❤ what material was the ligature?

 

[Worndown]

I am sorry you had a failure. Once you are ready, it would be good if it worked.
If you try again sometime, make sure to test the rope. Tie it off and see if it will support your weight.

 

[eternalflame]

I hope you are not in pain. Did you try medication?

 

[Preparingforpeace]

That's really rough bb, I'm so sorry ❤ what material was the ligature?

I used a necktie. Figured it would be strong enough. It wasnt.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That sounds really scary. Did anyone find you having the seizure or did you have to deal with it on your own? I hope you have recovered from it OK.

 

[Preparingforpeace]

That sounds really scary. Did anyone find you having the seizure or did you have to deal with it on your own? I hope you have recovered from it OK.

I dealt with it on my own. But had so much adrenaline going couldn't try again. I'm waiting for my next couple of days alone, coming soon, to try again. Either sn or just gonna partial again with a stronger tie or something.
The waiting sucks. I'm so damn ready. Just let it come already.
Thanks for the hugs and everything guys. Means a lot that someone cares.

 

[Ligottian]

Pardon my profanity, but I think it takes more balls to hang yourself than just about any other method. To me that seems so painful and fraught with the possibility of failure. If only we all had a perfect peaceful pill.

 

[Preparingforpeace]

Pardon my profanity, but I think it takes more balls to hang yourself than just about any other method. To me that seems so painful and fraught with the possibility of failure. If only we all had a perfect peaceful pill.

I thought it was actually pretty easy.
But that may just be because I'm set on my path. No SI to speak of.
Went right out super quick. If it didn't freaking rip I'd be at peace right now.