Failed heroin OD

[knowledgeseeking]

About a month back I did my research and ordered some heroin with the intent to OD and finally decided to do it last Saturday.

I prepared the heroin (1.5 grams) as instructed and loaded it in a syringe. Went and laid in my bed and inserted the needle in the vein in the crook of my elbow, pulled back to make sure i was in the vein and emptied the entire syringe in myself.

Immediately I felt this intense rush and in said "this is going to work". I laid down at peace with dying and then I could tell things were going wrong. My heart started beating harder than I thought and body went numb. I thought maybe I was going to have a heart attach which wasn't ideal but if that is what was happening, I accepted it.

I ended up waking the next morning with what felt like an alcohol hangover and intense emotional pain. Since then I have felt nothing but despair.

I can't believe that didn't work and still don't know where it went wrong.

 

[Eriktf]

OD is just really unreliable...
Woken up after what should be an od more time then I can count

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I can't believe that didn't work and still don't know where it went wrong.

First of all, I'm sorry you have to go through this. Failing an attempt is so awful, but don't be too hard on yourself

What went wrong? Most likely, the heroin you had wasn't pure 1.5g of heroin, rather it was cut with other shit. Did you test it for its purity?

 

[LastNite]

Im sorry that happened to you. Please try your best to lay off the idea of suicide for a while and dont think much about what happened to you. It's best for you to not remember the experience so you dont get addicted. Opioid ODs arent predictable especially heroin which is often cut or simply impure like Praestat said.
If you were to ever attempt again I wouldnt risk doing it again with opioids even with stronger ones. The risk of addiction is huge and you cant simply ignore it.

 

[MephiticShadow]

Are you sure it was 1 and a half grams??? I really can't picture that much heroin fitting in one syringe.....
Unless it was a 10ml syringe?

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sorry for your pain, please be kind to yourself. Sending love.

 

[Forveleth]

I am sorry it did not work for you. The emotional low after heroin is grueling and is often why people can not quit it. I hope you can ride it out.

Did you test your heroin at all? Even if it was pure, you might have hit the genetic lottery so to speak and have a natural resistance to opioids.

I have woken up after a failed attempt and it is a horrible feeling. I am sorry.

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I am sorry it did not work for you. The emotional low after heroin is grueling and is often why people can not quit it. I hope you can ride it out.

Did you test your heroin at all? Even if it was pure, you might have hit the genetic lottery so to speak and have a natural resistance to opioids.

I have woken up after a failed attempt and it is a horrible feeling. I am sorry.

There isn't any great options for testing in TX. It's even illegal to get some harm reduction supplies like fent test stripes. I agree with the might have hit the genetic lottery. I have tried some months or even a year ago with oxy and survived a what would be lethal to most dose. Of course I enter the opioid market after fent has been more widely removed in the states.

 

[ovaltinee99]

Where did you get your H?

 

[knowledgeseeking]

Where did you get your H?

Dark web. I did tons of research on the seller and he was highly recommended by many people on the retailing sight and dread.

 

[ovaltinee99]

I'm sorry this happened to you. I think the reason is down to either administration or the quality of the H - there are different types of H. I personally don't think it's genetic lottery. Many people actually wake up from a heroin OD after a day or two. The only members who I know died from it are those who took 4-5g by boofing.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

so how did you physically get the drug?
you met up with sommeone?
or they put it in your mailbox or something?

 

[knowledgeseeking]

so how did you physically get the drug?
you met up with sommeone?
or they put it in your mailbox or something?

Darkweb

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Darkweb

right, i saw. but after you had ordered it... how did you obtain it?
by contact with another person?
or someone placed it in a secret spot?

 

[knowledgeseeking]

right, i saw. but after you had ordered it... how did you obtain it?
by contact with another person?
or someone placed it in a secret spot?

They sent it via USPS. Came like any other package

 

[truehappiness]

Darkweb

I assume DH?
I saw their website and it looks pretty credible.
Was considering getting my benzos there for the SN attempt

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I assume DH?
I saw their website and it looks pretty credible.
Was considering getting my benzos there for the SN attempt

They are legit along with any other market on tor.taxi. Just be sure to do a little research on the vendor. The reviews on the market sites are not always the best resource. I would recommend another site called dread.

 

[truehappiness]

They are legit along with any other market on tor.taxi. Just be sure to do a little research on the vendor. The reviews on the market sites are not always the best resource. I would recommend another site called dread.

Thank you very much for the confirmation.
Yes. while they do have escrow services I also am scared that I just lose money into the void.

Also. If you are from germany, or able to get here and don't want to go alone. Please hmu
I still did not give completely up on finding a partner who wants to go with me.
I absolutely understand though if you prefer to do it alone.

CTB is the only thing where you have true freedom and one should design it the way they like.

 

[knowledgeseeking]

Thank you very much for the confirmation.
Yes. while they do have escrow services I also am scared that I just lose money into the void.

Also. If you are from germany, or able to get here and don't want to go alone. Please hmu
I still did not give completely up on finding a partner who wants to go with me.
I absolutely understand though if you prefer to do it alone.

CTB is the only thing where you have true freedom and one should design it the way they like.

A buddy would be nice to have for it, but I am in the US. Best of luck and let me know if I can provide any other info.

 

[truehappiness]

A buddy would be nice to have for it, but I am in the US. Best of luck and let me know if I can provide any other info.

Aw, that is quite sad.
Alright then. I still hope you can find someone to do it with then

Thank you for all the help so far <3
You have been the biggest help for me on this entire platform.

If I can do anything feel free to contact me as well

 

[ovaltinee99]

I read another post of yours while searching about heroin. It seemed like you hadn't done IV before and only practised on the day - I wonder if that's part of why it didn't work? IV is best, but I don't have experience with it either so I'm sticking with boofing.

How are you feeling now btw?

 

[rabbitjack]

Did you use heroin #3 (the insoluble one that requires citric acid) or #4 (the soluble one)?

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I read another post of yours while searching about heroin. It seemed like you hadn't done IV before and only practised on the day - I wonder if that's part of why it didn't work? IV is best, but I don't have experience with it either so I'm sticking with boofing.

How are you feeling now btw?

I did do it IV and certain I got in the vein. Initially I thought it was going to work but then things got weird. I should just give up on opiates but it really does sound like the best ending. I have three other methods ready to go, but I just can't get past wanting to OD. I'm sure I'll move past it eventually

 

[ovaltinee99]

Thank you very much for the confirmation.
Yes. while they do have escrow services I also am scared that I just lose money into the void.

Also. If you are from germany, or able to get here and don't want to go alone. Please hmu
I still did not give completely up on finding a partner who wants to go with me.
I absolutely understand though if you prefer to do it alone.

CTB is the only thing where you have true freedom and one should design it the way they like.

There's always a risk losing your money when it comes to these things, so do your best research and just make peace with it. Take your time and study the reviews, specifically the number of disputes and open transactions with the seller - the lower, the better.

Please be very careful when trying to meet up with strangers on this website, too. Some people take advantage of the vulnerable.