Venting Extreme Depression pain and loneliness ever since a child & Now I'm 23 worse then before .at the ending stage

[Buddha.e.c]

I Urge to not live this overbearing since of worthlessness I don't blame anyone but for not killing myself sooner . Should someone who is sick mentally & life no longer is enjoyable should kill themself it depends if it has me in complete darkness then i know I'm ready to go see the light. why bother if shaking as i write this as i can sense death near but ill be okay .I believe we are all going to die if see know for sure you are ready to ctb you better have a clear understanding that you are not coming back . I know this is my only way out i will no longer be a burden Just a reminder having a nice personality and hiding your pain will make you sick , worse can get you killed in a world of no love and pure hatred .
Sad alone sick and hopeless this is me

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I know that it can be unbearable living a life that is just misery and pain. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Buddha.e.c]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I know that it can be unbearable living a life that is just misery and pain. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

No matter how close i am to death i feel as through im getting closer and the pain keeps getting stronger

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

My thoughts are with OP. If he's caught his bus, I hope he's resting in peace. Otherwise, I hope he is happy and well and found a new lease on life.