Story Explain your username

[BlendedHeart]

My heart is a mix of mild euphoria and paralyzing depression.

Also, English isn't my first language so I guess there's a better way to express that, but I'm satisfied with it.

 

[restingpiece]

i chose restingpiece as a play on words for "rest in piece".

resting = the eternal sleep that comes with death
piece = me, my being, mind and body

putting them together i see it as me resting peacefully forever, which i think sounds pretty comforting.

 

[TheWorstLife]

its obviously a bit of an exaggeration as theres worse lives, but it fits for me as i dont think my life could even get any worse even if i tried

 

[setspiritfree]

I feel like when I die I will be nothing and everything at the same time where my spirit and ashes will be a part of everything and my spirit can travel infinitely around the universe.

 

[TheWorstLife]

I feel like when I die I will be nothing and everything at the same time where my spirit and ashes will be a part of everything and my spirit can travel infinitely around the universe.

i like ur name dude

 

[setspiritfree]

i like ur name dude

Thank you so much, glad it's encouraging to you. I am now following you on here by the way

 

[Black_Knight]

It's because I like to play teams and characters that are like "black" in chess, even though I don't particularly like chess itself because it's more of a test of patience than intellect for me. And I don't have patience.
I play the reactive role, initially disadvantaged in terms of action, but advantaged with information. Defensive over offensive.
I also believe in fairytale Camelot shit, and chivalry. I don't identify as a masculine entity by any means, but chivalry is still an ideal I aspire towards, because I believe gender is bogus, earthbound lifeform fake shit, and real chivalry knows no gender.
If you've ever watched revolutionary girl utena, I feel like the girl who wanted to be a prince and anthy in one.

 

[Persona3]

I have identity issues and divide myself into three parts, but I don't have DID.
I could explain it in detail, but I don't have the strength to do so rn

 

[AstralMadness]

Feels like I'm going more insane every day and this username doesn't sound like anything else I've used on the net

 

[wilting_flower]

Inspired by the emoji lol. and how I feel having lost most of my twenties without much to show for it.

 

[bigjwang]

IYKYK

 

[TheWorstLife]

Thank you so much, glad it's encouraging to you. I am now following you on here by the way

awesomee, im not on here all the time, i feel like i should be a bit more active

 

[Pale_Rider]

I walk with death, and death walks with me. the notion of death on a pale horse is from the Bible. book of revelations . there are footprints.

 

[ungodly]

just a cool word i thought of while signing up lol

 

[BlueberryDeer]

1. I'm a furry, so I often choose any animals in my usernames.
2. Blueberry is a great flavor.
3. Deer is the same species as my avatar, Lilla, so it became natural to choose to.
4. Together, it made a cute, pastel username.

 

[AltF4Mylife]

:)

 

[future∶]

favorite artist

 

[geometryculdesac]

It's from the song Dallas by the Silver Jews. "Once you taste the geometry of a church in a cul-de-sac, you're gonna want to sit with the bad kids in the back"

 

[Alpacachino]

It's my favorite animal,Actor and beverage, in that order.An amalgam of those things.Guessing it shouldn't be too difficult. The answer is below.

Spoiler

Alpaca, Al Pacino and cappuccino.

 

[MrBigSad]

I'm overweight and sad. But it's also a reference to when internet people called depression the big sad.

 

[woodlandcreature]

i've never felt human–moreso like a creature that resides deep in the woods. no one knows of its existence, so not a thing cares for it. the creature takes up no space in the minds of beings; it is inhuman. evil. me.

 

[Pessimist]

I chose this name because I'm very pessimistic. But maybe nowadays a more accurate name would be "Misanthrope", because I'm increasingly disgusted with humanity, religion, life and radical politics.

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

I died when a teenager and while I was dead I was on a train full of people I didn't know then a woman put her hand on my shoulder and said I'd be fine and soon as fine left her mouth I got yanked down a pitch black tunnel then woke up to 3 ambulance workers staring down at me,they said I wouldn't shut up about being on this train and ever since then I've knew it's a fact when we die we don't die we actually go somewhere else,death is just a human invention it doesn't exist anywhere else in the known universe as nothing dies it just gets reborn over and over again and I suspect governments know this and that's why they drill it into us from being born that death is a bad thing as they don't want us all to know that so called death is just actually a way to be reborn into another life or something similar,then after I heard Elon musk say we live in a simulation and with all the documented proof USA slowly releases over time it solidified my opinion that we never die truelly as scientists have said our soul is an infinite energy source that cannot be extinguished by anything it's just impossible so our souls have to go somewhere and now I don't fear death no more,I'm just nervous af about what it's gonna be like,a bit like going on the worlds biggest rollercoaster for the first time but I do also believe that if we do certain things in life it has an impact on where we go once our physical body dies like if we are good and have morals we may be reborn or go to so called heaven and if we bad evil we go to hell or end up in limbo unable to be reborn or go to hell just stuck in the between world as shadowy ghosts spirits poltergeists and shadow people,this would also explain why we see those things but can never understand how they come to be

 

[uzl lover]

Uzl is a misspelling of Uzi from murder drones.

 

[meiherasoru_]

I changed the lyrics to the word "menhera"
(I put an i instead of an n)
the soru comes from a singer

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

The first letters of one of my favorite lines (*gestures to profile badge*) in one of my favorite songs, Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol. Also, and more importantly, is NOT even close to an username that I have used anywhere else on the internet (the "acronym as a username" is actually not generally my style).

 

[_Vasa&Me_]

Oh boy… here comes a long, sad, and probably anger inducing story..

When I was 7-8 years old (or around that age range) me and my grandparents drove to the sea for summer vacation and lived inside our family friend's holiday home. There they had a lot of cats walking around and living nearby the house, one particular cat mom was pregnant with many kittens recently and would regularly come up nearby the house with all of them. Well… one day I remember seeing one of the kittens laying away from everyone else in a very awkward and kinda concerning position, me, being a kid, was nervous that checking on him with my hands would result in me getting cut severely, so I went with my leg. Initially he didn't react so I pressed against him with the leg (I don't know what I was thinking, looking back it was such a bad decision) and I guess I must have been too hard on his delicate body because that caused him to die…

I remember crying so hard and hating myself even as a very young kid for doing such an evil thing to such an innocent animal, crying for as long as a week and never forgetting such an event for the rest of my life.

I still get reminded of it regularly throughout my life 15 or so years later, but this year I decided I will do more than just grieve, I had to pay back in some way.

I still live with my parents (of which my dad hates cats) so I cant do it yet, but as soon as I finish University, get my degree job, and move out, the first thing I will do is adopt a black cat from an animal shelter. Black because they get chosen the least and still have this ancient stigma of being the bringers of bad luck.

Anyways so where does the nickname tie into this? Well I decided to name this future cat Vasa, in relation to a famous Swedish warship during the Age of Sail which sank on its first maiden voyage, not having a chance to live out even a bit of its intended long service life (just like that cat who died prematurely by my hands).

Another interesting thing I noticed about the name which drove me closer to using it was the fact that my childhood best friend (also around the time of the cats death) had a very similar name, especially in sound (Vasia), kind of like it was destined for me to be picked.

I do not have high hopes for my future, I see a lot of misery and loneliness ahead, with not a lot of options as a way to escape other than CTB (which I suspect will become a huge want for me in 1-3 years)

But before all that, before anything else, I will do this one thing and have this cat with me as a way to repay all the harm I have done in the past and give it all my love and affection.

I know I am alone… but at least I will have Vasa&Me

Thank you so much for anyone who actually read the entire thing, I truly appreciate it.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

Lol, this was just on my mind. Made my account about a year and some months ago. Have been offline for several months. Just logged back in today, looked at my username and tried to remember what prompted it and remembered:

 

[pokerrkitty]

I'm really into card games and cats are my favorite animal