Everything is Broken

[fishtacos4me]

I recently lost something especially important to me. Its left me with a deep sense of loss, like I'm mourning.

I lost my dream world.

All my dreams at night take place in the same town. It's a consistent setting in which night after night I do basically the same things in the same place. I encounter the same roads, same park, same stores, same building with slight variations. I see some of the same people over and over each night. I like it there; it's a nice place and I know my way around.

Recently it broke. I'm pretty spectrumy and I don't like changes like this. I don't like being in a strange place with strange people, not knowing what's going to happen next. Now I'm just dumped into some random place with some random people doing some random thing. It's awful. I don't even want to go to sleep anymore.

I've always had insomnia, but at least I knew that when I did get to sleep, I was going somewhere pleasant. Now there is not even that and it's making all my dreams into nightmares.

I feel homesick. Even my dreams are broken. I am not okay. I am broken.

 

[BornofDust]

How did the dream world broke ? That must be heart wrenching. The place that gives you comfort in your sleep in this cruel world is now broken. That must be a daily pain. I hope that you may find comfort in dreaming about nothing. About the abyss. Meaning completely blank.

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, you can always try to control your dreams or have lucid dreams again!
It ain't over till it's really over!

Check this video and see if it works for you. I hope you can have those great dreams again!