Everything is better.

[worldexploder]

Again sorry for what I said earlier. I had a good crying session with my ex wife over the phone. Didn't mean to put her though all this crap ether. I hate being around myself...can't imagine why people like her want to be around me.

I got myself to calm down. I'm done thinking about CTB for awhile. If an opportunity presents itself than great. But I'm gonna drive myself crazy if I keep focusing on it.

I'm still gonna write my manifesto and god damnit I'm still gonna stand up for the right to die!

 

[TiredHorse]

I don't want to come across as a Thou-must-seek-life! troll, but I'm glad you stumbled into a way to take the edge off, and that ctb is on the back burner. It'd be a real bummer to spend your last moment among the cadre of people who report knowing they had made a mistake just as they took the last step.

I hope you can find some calm, and that life somehow improves to where it's worth living. Failing that, I hope you find the perfect way to ctb. But don't drive yourself crazy; that makes either option problematic.

Yes: always stand up for your right to die!

 

[Lifeisatrap]

The right to die definately needs more advocacy.

 

[worldexploder]

The right to die definately needs more advocacy.

Amen to that. Not being able to end it causes me great distress. To me, not having the right to die peacefully and on our own terms is tat amount to cruel and unusual punishment. And we never even committed a crime.