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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
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I'm just laughing with tears in my eyes. Because nothing makes sense.

I've accepted that I do desire human companionship, anyone who I could actually relate to, share the things that I love with, have a connection with. Someone who actually understands me and who I understand. Someone who gets the way I think and I don't have to hide anything from. Not even romantic, just friendship.

I've also accepted that it's impossible for me.

Every time I've tried has been a miserable failure.

So what now? I'm just supposed to drift along, utterly unfulfiled and full of longing, never reaching contentment or satisfaction no matter how strongly I have tried to seek it out?

How sad!

:pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff:

Fuck everything lol
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
Oh dear, I'm so sorry you're in so much pain.
I think there's always somebody for every person but it can be really hard (and even impossible) to meet them.

Hope you can feel better soon.

Hugs and love
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
I'm just laughing with tears in my eyes. Because nothing makes sense.

I've accepted that I do desire human companionship, anyone who I could actually relate to, share the things that I love with, have a connection with. Someone who actually understands me and who I understand. Someone who gets the way I think and I don't have to hide anything from. Not even romantic, just friendship.

I've also accepted that it's impossible for me.

Every time I've tried has been a miserable failure.

So what now? I'm just supposed to drift along, utterly unfulfiled and full of longing, never reaching contentment or satisfaction no matter how strongly I have tried to seek it out?

How sad!

:pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff:

Fuck everything lol
Nothing has made sense to me for the last four years and it was done on purpose so I can relate to you.
 
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