NSFW ever the one who r×pe me was in my house

[marshmallow_mochi]

Was it's great when you tell ur parents that you get rape but ur step brother who rape u was still in the house hahahahha, I hate myself and my mother just fucking disregard my feeling like it's nothing thanks goodness I'm fucking drinking because I didn't know what I'm gonna excuse why I'm crying right now .

I wanna die but why it's feel so hard to just die, I hate myself. why I just killed myself when it's so early now that I'm fucking 19 why it's hard to just leave everything behind like do they really behind what I said to them, I'm really important to them om really useless. I'm fucking hate myself I hate everything hahahahahahahahhaha let me die hahahahahah I hate this, I hate what I'm feeling right now
they really just disregard what I'm feeling I hate them I hate myself , I hate why I'm feeling this, why I'm still alive, why he still living like what he did was nothing .
I hate myself, I hate myself , I hate myself hate myself I hate myself I hate myself
I hate myself, I hate myself , I hate myself hate myself I hate myself I hate myself

 

[Anon_Guy]

Hi,

I can't really relate with your problems but I can understand you went through a lot.
I'm sorry your parents didn't react the way they should have done.
There is a lot of phone numbers or associations you can contact online that are specialized in treating those problems and healing the victims.
Venting can also lighten your heart. It does to some people.

I wish you the best on your journey, sincerely.

 

[SomePeacePlease]

I'm so sorry for what you have gone through. There is no excuse for what's been done to you.

It's naturally difficult to commit suicide, because you have a natural subconscious self preservation. For most of us(I believe), it's not so much that we want to die, we just want to escape the feelings we have.
I know that's how it is for me. I'll get through the new years eve and days after with my son, and then I'll leave the last 20 years of pain, and ctb.