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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

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Dec 26, 2024
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I have to keep going to work to make money, but I really don't feel like going. Yes, they already gave me bereavement time but it's still exhausting, having to pretend to be friendly and in a good mood, my dad really broke my heart with this. I just feel so sad and alone, I have to get up and get ready for work in 30 minutes and it's 4 a.m. I dread it, having to shower and put on clothes and go through the day. I wish I would've spent more time with my dad while he was still here. I really just want to drink all day and be alone, I can feel myself getting back into that unhealthy deep depression where I just drink all the time again. My dad's funeral was 3 days ago, feels like a depression I'll never get over.
 
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SASU-KE

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Nov 26, 2025
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So sorry,I was in a similar situation recently.It was my mother who passed away.It's going to be tough for some time. It slowly gets a bit better.

I stayed away from drinking on purpose when she passed.I thought it would drag me to a very dark place.

We're here for you in the meantime ☺️
 
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